Y 6.30.2006
Superman: A Day Full of Drama
Today is the last day of June. I was so excited yesterday because Mendel will have a big birthday bash for Leo, Mike and Rachelle. The day started fine got worse then returned to a happy state. Nung morning kasi owkei naman. Tapos nung lunch time namin eh dumating si Em sa MaSci. Aun so kinausap sia ng Coper at Lawrence na Mendel. Tapos nung hapon, 12:20 pa lang eh dismissal na rin ng Coper at Lawrence eh ang aga pa so hindi pa puwedeng umalis. Tapos biglang absent pa pala si Leo ngaun. eh isa siya sa mga magbibirthday bash dibah? So eion, mejo nagkagulo. Tapos nagkaconflict pa ng sked kac ndi alam kung anong oras darating si Mike taps eh tutugtog pa sina Em tapos may choir pa ung iba. Nagkagulo talaga. Hindi namin alam gagawin. So tumawag na lang kami sa bahay nina Leo tapos sabi nila he's too sick to go out. So eion, tinuloy pa rin namin pero hindi sia as expected. Kumain lang muna kami KFC. Tapos parang tinanong kung san gagala. Most of them eh SM ang gusto so eion. Pagdating namin dun, dahil two batches kami eh mejo nagkagulo ulit kung saan saan na nagpuntahan. Then parang napagdesisyunan na ituloy na ung dating balak na manood ng movie. Hay naku, dun na nagsimula ang drama. Umiyak si cha hindi ko alam bakit sabi daw nia sabi kasi namin eh hindi kami manonood. Tapos ung mga boys ang hirap pa pilitin. So nagdadrama effect na ung girls wala pa rin, hindi pa rin matinag. Pinipilit na silang umakyat ng 4th floor eh walang gumagalaw. So umakyat na kami at sabi naming susunod din naman sila. eion, sumunod nga. Tapos napagusapan nilang magpapatintero nalang daw sila. Dun na ko mejo napuno. Bahala sila, basta kami gusto naming manood bahala sila. Mejo bwisit na kasi ako nung time na yun dahil sa iba pang reason eh. Kasi naman hogger. Arggh..nabibwisit lang talaga ako. Ang yabang yabang kasi. Hai...neweiz, edi un eh sarado na ang badminton city na binalakan nilang magpatintero so sasama na cla. Pero additional drama na naman kung ano papanoorin. Superman ba o Scary Movie 4. Aun parang mejo nasigaw-sigawan ni Kim si Rachelle, naiyak na si Che. After that mejo owkei na, pumayag na rin si Che manood. Pumayag na rin ung mga boys after much persuasion on my part. Hay. Pagkatapos nun nakabili na ng tickets biglang si Maton eh hindi na daw manonood. Alam nio na..eion, so nabawasan na naman kami. Tapos biglang si Jay-V naiwan sa Quantum. Sobrang sorry po. Tapos biglang si Vanir nagwalk out. Nadepress daw sia. hindi ko alam kung bakit. After all that drama. Masaia pa rin naman. Kawawa si Bea sakin at si PH. Sobrang nagugulat kasi ako tsaka eiwan kaya squeeze kaagad ng arms nila. Ahehe. Aun, realization. I'm in LOVE with Superman!! ahaha. ang gwapo ni brandon ROuth sobra. parang gusto ko na ngang ipagpalit si Daniel eh. ahehe. Sobra talaga. Hindi ko nakaya si Brandon ROuth. Super gwapo...ahehe. Aun tapos before we know it uwian na. Tapos biglang beggar pics sa labas ng SM. LRT time then uwian na. Hindi maxadong nameet ung expectations ko kasi parang ang daming drama pero mas naging masaya ako ngaun kaysa last time nung the omen. ahehe. secret na lang kung bakit...ahaha..eion..cie na..till next time basta. I LOVE SUPERMAN! sobrang naiintindihan ko na ngaun ang addiction ni Baby M sa superman..haha..eion..toodles!
you know you love me
xoxo
9:00:00 PM
Y 6.26.2006
Just Letting my Rage Out
Hai. there's a group of people na nabibwisit ako ngaun. I can't say who of course and I can't say why. Baka magsimula pa ng world war 3. Basta their ideologies eh baluktut at they're so power-hungry beyond comprehension. Ginagamit nila ang perks for their own selfish desires. Napaka unfair na ng mga bagay2 na nangyayari. They don't even listen to reason from other people from the opposition..Basta. bwisit. First time that me and my sis actually agreed on something. Basta panget. Hai. evil na tingin ko sa kanila. At hinding hindi na magbabago un. Hindi na ko makekealam sa mga bagay2 concerned sa field nila basta Academics na lang ako magfofocus. Buti pa dun, reasonable ang mga mangyayari. Hai. nakakabwisit talaga.
you know you love me
xoxo
8:22:00 PM
Y 6.25.2006
Status Quo
Stick to the Status Quo
Zeke:
You can bet There's nothin' but net When I am in a zone and on a roll But I've got a confession My own secret obsession And it's making me lose control
Jocks: Everybody gather 'round
Zeke(spoken): Well if Troy can tell his secret than I can tell mine...I bake
Jock(spoken): What?
Zeke(spoken): I love to bake! Strudels, scones, even apple pandowdy
Jocks: Not another sound
Zeke(spoken): Someday I hope to make the perfect creme brulee
Jocks: No, no, no, nooooooooooo No, no, no Stick to the stuff you know If you wanna be cool Follow one simple rule Don't mess with the flow, no no Stick to the status quo
Martha Cox: Look at me And what do you see Intelligence beyond compare But inside I am stirring Something strange is occuring It's a secret I need to share
Brainiacs: Open up, dig way down deep
Martha Cox(spoken): Hip hop is my passion! I love to pop and lock and jam and break!
Braniac(spoken): Is that even legal?
Brainiacs: Not another peep
Martha(spoken): It's just dancing. Sometimes I think it's cooler than homework.
Brainiacs: No, no, no, noooooooooo No, no, no Stick to the stuff you know It is better by far To keep things as they are Don't mess with the flow, no no Stick to the status quo
Skaterdude: Listen well I'm ready to tell About a need that I cannot deny Dude, there's no explanation For this awesome sensation But I'm ready to let it fly
Dudes & Dudettes: Speak your mind and you'll be heard
Skaterdude(spoken): Alright, if Troy wants to be a singer... then i'm coming clean! I play the cello!
Dude 1(spoken): Awesome!
Dude 2(spoken): What is it?
Dude 1(spoken): A saw?
Skaterdude(spoken): No, dude, it's like a giant violin!
Dudes & Dudettes: Not another word
Dude 2(spoken): Do you have to wear a costume?
Skaterdude(spoken): Coat and tie
Dudes & Dudettes: No, no, no, nooooooooooo No, no, no Stick to the stuff you know If you wanna be cool Follow one simple rule Don't mess with the flow, no no Stick to the status quoooooooo
Jocks, Brainiacs, & Dudes: No, no, nostick to the stuff you know It is better by far To keep things as they are Don't mess with the flow, no no Stick to the status quo
Sharpay: This is not what I want This is not what I planned And I just gotta sayI do not understand Someting is really
Ryan: Something's not right
Sharpay: Really wrong
Sharpay & Ryan: And we gotta get things Back where they belong We can do it
Skaterdude: Gotta play
Dudes & Dudettes: Stick with what you know
Sharpay & Ryan: We can do it
Martha Cox: Hip hop hooray
Brainiacs: She has got to go
Sharpay & Ryan: We can do it
Zeke: Creme Brulee
Jocks: Keep your voice down low
Jocks, Brainiacs & Dudes/Dudettes: Not another peep No, not another word No, not another sound No
Sharpay: Everybody quiet
Gabriella(spoken): Why is everybody staring at you?
Monique(spoken): Not me, you.
Gabriella(spoken): Because of the callbacks? I can't have people staring at me! I really can't!
Jocks, Brainiacs...: Noooooooooooooo, no, no, no Sick to the stuff you know If you want to be cool Follow one simple rule Don't mess with the flow, oh no Stick to the status quooooooooooooo No, no, no Stick to the stuff you know It is better by far To keep things as they are Don't mess with the flow, no no Stick to the status stick to the status Stick to the status quo
I found the lyrics of this song from the show High School Musical. Actually, pH found them but neweiz what I wanted to say was that it's all wrong. Stupid status quio, does that even exist here in the Philippines? Maybe yes, maybe no, who knows? How about in our school? I guess status quo doesn't exist in MaSci. Though there may be distinctions bet. the GC's, the rakistas, the girly-girls, the choir and etc. I still don't see a status quo here. That's good becuase a person is not only limited to one thing. SO what if you play basketball and sing? I am GC yet my passion is dancing. That's why I highlighted those part of the song becuase I could relate. So what if you're a jock and you bake? Isn't it more amazing if you're versatile or multi-talented? Can't you be two or three people in one? I'm sure you can. I don't even like being labeled. I do accept it when people call me GC because that's what I am but I don't want to be labeled as only that because there's more to me than a girl who's concentrated on her studying. There's more to a person that what he/she shows in the outside. I fell lucky that status quo doesn't exist in MaSci. To be labeled and to concentrate on just one part of yourself is just wrong. One should feel free to be good and excell in as many things or in as many aspects as he/she can. Isn't that right? This song really made me think. Even if you're just one person you could still be a hundred in one. A person has many things to offer. He is not just limited to one talent or ability. The status quo is just a silly idea they made up in order to remain on top. Being versatile is still better than just being really good at one thing. That's what I believe in.
you know you love me
xoxo
4:45:00 PM
Y 6.24.2006
A New Experience
Well, today is actually a normal Saturday with a few twists. Last night, I had my mind set to staying here in Manila for the weekend. Suddenly, this morning my aunt said she had to go home to Pampanga. I really didn't want to go because I had so many things to do and I need the internet in doing most of them. I told my aunt I'd be staying here while she and Nina went home. So there. Well, I was about to print something for my report in Social Studies when I found out that we're out of ink so I had to go to Rob to have the ink refilled. I called Vanir to go with me since I knew she was going to buy her bag today but then she said she'd be busy doing the laundry with her mom so I had no choice but to go out alone. When I was about to go out, I did notice the dark clouds. I wasn't bothered since I always bring my umbrella with me whether it be sunny or whatnot. Anyhoo, it was still really hot when I rode the LRT at Gil Puyat Station. Upon arriving at the UN Station, the droplets of rain started to fall. I was still dry when I passed by MaSci. But, when I was already passing UP the wind did its job. The moment I stepped in Rob I looked at myself and I saw myself soaked with rain. I was all alone soaked from head to toe with rain. But, the thing is I still felt cheerful. So, my adventure began. I went to do what I was set to do, get the ink refilled. After that, I went to PowerBooks. I was shocked to see some books on sale. I really took my time there searching for good bargains. At last, I was able to buy four books. The Mediator by Meg Cabot was only 49 pesos, a new book from a new series only costs 39 pesos, A Barbie Mystery book that costs 15 pesos. I was going to buy a book entitled Confessions of a Heartless Girl which is priced at 49 pesos but I decided not to. Anyway, the Barbie mystery book is not for me. It's for my lil sister because I wasn't able to give her a gift last Sat. for her birthday so it will be a late birthday present. After that I went to Gene Gozun where they sell those cool, colorful belts that only cost 99 pesos which are actually only cloths that you place on your hips or waist. I had my eyes set on those since summer but since I was bankrupt then I wasn't able to buy one until now. I also wanted to buy a blouse and they were also on sale for 99 pesos but then none fit me. Their smallest size is medium and they're a bit big on the shoulders so I decided I'll have to settle for the belt. I was so amazed with shopping when it's sale on the mall. It's the first out I went shopping alone much more on a sale looking for bargains. You know me, I don't care about prices, as long as I like something I don't care bout the price. I'll buy it one way or another. I went to some other shops looking at the items. They were really cheap but I didn't find anything that really caught my eye. After all that window shopping and actual shopping I went to eat at KFC. It was weird eating alone. I can't believe I was able to go out alone, shop alone and eat alone. It brought out a different feeling. I didn't feel like I was alone at all. I didn't feel sad because I wasn't with anyone. I felt like I was independent for the first time. I never go out alone. Even if there's only two of us, I really make sure I have someone with me when I go to the mall or to any other place because I'm scared to go alone. Now, I found out it wasn't so bad after all. It wasn't even boring. But there's still one thing I don't think I'll ever do alone, watch a movie. I'll never watch a movie on my own. Never. But a while ago I wanted to try it. I felt like I want to do something that I never wanted to do before and be able to say that I've done that even just once in my life. Well, maybe I will do those things some other time, not today. The journey home was peaceful and nothing exciting or out of the ordinary happened and I'm now back here, sitting on my chair and typing on my beloved computer, sharing my new experience to the world. The stupid printer doesn't want to work after all the hell I've been to get the ink refilled but it'll work later. It has to. Anyhow, that's all I have to share now. I have to go back to doing my homeworks. I'm back on GC mode again. Tata for now.
you know you love me
xoxo
4:22:00 PM
Y 6.23.2006
Badminton
waah...wala lang, kakaaliw magbadminton kanina. It's an exhilirating experience. Syempre, late na naman kami nakaalis dahil nagmeeting muna sa PION. Ayun, dun kami sa Feathers naglaro sumwhere in Intramuros. First time kong nakarating sa part na un ng Manila. Ang alam ko lang kasing Intramuros eh ung may WoW Philippines. Well, pagdating namin dun, excited maglaro siempre. Sayang lang dahil hindi makakapaglaro sina Maton at si Vanir dahil ala silang rubber shoes. So un, naaliw ako sa first round ko ng paglalaro. Si CM ang aking katunggali at napansin ko na sa aming paglalaro ay hindi man siya halos tumatakbo, konting galaw lang. Ako naman ay takbo ng takbo, feel ko naikot ko ung buong court. Ginawa naming rule namin na kailangan naming maabot ang letter z sa rally. Well, sa buong paglalaro namin hanggang N lang ang naabot namin pero astig pa rin kasi I don't really do sports eh. Si CM namin sabi ko ay kailangang tumakbo. Pano siya papayat? Ahihi. Aun, nagpahinga naman na ko nun tapos nakipaglaro kay jenine, tapos ay kumain at nakipaglaro kay PH...hindi namin namalayan ay 6 pm na pala so aun, aalis na kami. Naunang umalis si jenine eh sia ung nakakaalam ng daan so nagtanng pa kami sa guard at naglakad upang maghanap ng jeep. Sa aming paglalakad ay biglang may *boom*. Nagulat ako, pagtingin ko sa taas may firework pala. Firework kasi isa lang, after nun ala nang sumunod. Nagulat nga kami nina maton at gaux eh. Hai, buti naman at hindi kami nawala ngaun at nakarating kami sa SM Manila kung saan nakabili ako ng book. Waah...nakakalula sa Rob ang daming sale na magagandang clothes but bankrupt ako ngaun. Bumili nga kc ako ng buks. Hai, after that exhilirating experience sabi namin bowling naman next time. Ahihi. Excited na rin ako sa 30 kung kailan lalakwa na naman ang Mendel as celebration ng mga bday nina Rach, Mike at Leo.
This week has been quite weird. Paiba-iba kasi ang nangyari this week eh. May mga araw na down ako, may mga araw naman na high ang spirits ko. Sana ay magbond na ang Coper. Mejo nakakausap naman na namin sila pero may iba pa rin na distant.
Sa Monday ay may visitors ang MaSci. Darating ang ilang VIP at ang mayor ng Maynila na si Mayor Lito Atienza. Well, first time ko siang makikita in person. Sabi nila nakabarong daw ung mga darating eh si Atienza, nagbabarong ba un? Sigurado nakaflowery polo sia, dibah? hehe. Pati ba naman fashion sense ng mayor eh imention sa blog ko. Neweiz, mejo nanghinayang ako sa election sa vp ng senior assembly. 2 votes lang kasi lamang eh. Pag close fight nanghihinayang ako eh. Pero owkei lang un. Anyway, sana next week masaya ulit ang week at sana maging masaya ulit sa Coper.
Well, what else can I say? Wala na, naubusan na ko. Basta, happy ako ngaun. Un na un. ^_^
you know you love me
xoxo
8:41:00 PM
Y 6.22.2006
High
High by The Speaks
Will it ever be? I’ve tried so hard to find sweet serenity Are you still afraid? Just close your eyes and dream, and feel it fade away.
Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes You’ve got to hold your head up high…
It’s taken some time,
And I’ve given up the will to change your state of mind Try and understand, It’s not so hard to see that I am just a man.
Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes You’ve got to hold your head up high…
Will it ever be?
I’ve tried so hard to find sweet serenity Try and understand, It’s not so hard to see that I am just a man.
Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes You’ve got to hold your head up high…
I kinda like this song. Eiwan ko ba, nagandahan lang siguro ako sa melody. pero ngaung nakita ko ung buong song..mejo hindi ko maintindhan ang lyrics nia. may ilang lines lang nga na nacapture ung attention ko which might have been my state of mind before. Hai, anyway sumaya naman ang buhay ngaung araw na toh. Bakit kaya? Wala namang iisang factor na nagpasaya sa araw ko. Sadyang hindi lang sia malunkot tulad ng kahapon. Ang saya magcheer ulit sa patintero ng boys. Siempre, Mendel pa rin ang hari ng patintero. Pero it's so nakakalunkot to think na kulang -kulang na silang naglalaro. Wala nga ung nagsimula eh. Hai...neweiz, xcited na ko tom. Badminton mode kami ng mga Mendel. Sana makasama si Maton at si Banir. hehe, neweiz sana maging masaya na ulit si vanir at wala ng problema. GO! kaya mo yan. hehe. Neweiz, nangangati na naman ang kamay ko. Kailangang gumastos. Bibili na naman ako ng buk bukas. Well, kk lang un. Investments naman ang books eh. Dibah? Nehow, kakamiss talaga ang samahang mendel pero narealize ko na rin na never na mababalik ung dating super complete pero masaya pa rin naman kami at kahit anong mangyari eh we'll still stay friends. Kaming lahat. Excited na rin akong manood ng Just Got Luck. Namimiss ko na rin kasing lumabas kasama sina Nikko at Abychu. Siempre dahil di kami magkakaklase minsan na lang kami nagkakausap na tatlo. So, eion..kakamiss din sila. Eist, cie...ttyl...GC mode ako. GC mode to the highest level na toh. Message ko nga pala sa Coper: Mag-aral na lang kayo! Sorry, pero ala kaung pag-asa sa patintero. hehehe..Peace!...
Love Lots, Nyxz xoxox
you know you love me
xoxo
8:55:00 PM
Y 6.21.2006
Down
I feel so down today. This is such a bad day. Siguro nagsimula nung nagising kami ng late. Tapos nabadtrip pa ko kaninang paalis. Tapos nagkapalitan ng lines sa assembly so napunta ang coper sa gitna na super pangit na location. And then these rude juniors eh nagcut pa sa line na nagpakulo ng dugo ko umagang umaga. Tapos kaninang filipino we weren't the best group, we were actually one of the last...buti na lang may ka-tie kami. Parang I felt so low, that I let my group down. Kaninang bago mag tle, nakita ko ung sign sa volleyball practice, nakalagay June 23. So, naalala ko kung anong araw ngaun. June 21 pala ngaun. May significance pala ung araw ngaun kahit konti. After Filipino may nakita pa ko that bothered me. I used or chose the word bothered kasi mas appropriate un kaysa sa na-hurt dahil hindi naman or nawindang or whatever word na anjan. Neweiz un nga dahil nabother ako buong physics hati ang diwa ko. Kalahati eh nasa lesson, kalahati nandun sa nakita ko. Neweiz, nung Adchem mejo nafocus na ko sa lesson. Sa social mejo lesson pa rin pero kung anu-anong bagay na naman ang pumapasok sa isip ko. Natuwa kami dahil walang FM. Nakagawa kami sa Adchem at natapos namin. Taps CS naman, natapos namin ung h.o. Hai, after that eiwan ko ba bigla akong na burn out. Aun I got the right word. Alam mo ung feeling na at the end of the day wala na, ubos na baterya mo na ayaw mo na. Mejo lupaypay hitsura ko kanina. Naninibago nga daw si Rachelle eh. Well, nanuod kami ng patintero ng mendel tsaka ibang sec. Hindi kami maxado nakapagcheer kasi nga aun, nasa mood ako na parang wala. basta, magulo. Aun, taps dahil kasama ko na mendel mejo nagkabattery na ko but still, I felt so tired of living. I don't mean gusto kong magsuicide that's one thing that'll never come into my mind, kahit ano mang mangyari. It's just that parang ayaw ko na sa buhay ko. I want to live another life wherein I won't feel this tired. Parang sa araw-araw na lang eh monotonous ang buhay. Parang walang force or bagay na naguurge sakin to live or to be happy. Alam mo un? Parang masusurvive mo lang ang bawat araw kung may one thing that urges you or inspires you to live. Siguro un na ung emptiness na nararamdaman ko. Ung parang kahit napapaligiran ako ng maraming tao eh parang nagiisa pa rin ako. Ayoko namang ubusan ang oras ko sa paghahanap ng magpupuno nung emptiness na un. Pagod na ko, ayokong magpagod pa. Hay, kailan kaya ako makakaalis sa rut na toh. Sana there will be wonderful surprises in store by next week or next month or kahit bukas. Sana hindi na ko mabother. Sana I would feel whole again at mawala na ung feeling of emptiness. Sana...sana...I guess it all comes to sana maging masaya't kuntento na ko sa buhay ko.
you know you love me
xoxo
9:01:00 PM
Y 6.20.2006
Loneliness
Hai. ang lunkot. naiiyak ako. si yani kasi eh..well, ganito kac un, kanina parang nagshare si yani ng prob. nia, jealous effect kay maton, kim at bea..aun, basta...so ako rin kasi eh ganun ung nararamdaman ko pero hindi ko na lang sinasabi..so dahil nagshare si yani..nagshare din ako eion, tapos naalala ko na naman ang past. ung kay marj. taps basta un ung isa sa worst fear ko ung parang iwanan ka ng friends mo. ung makahanap sila ng other friends at mawalan na sila ng time for you. so i remembered badillo. SOBRANG mahal ko yan, naalala ko nung second year hanggang x-mas party eh sila ung kasama kong lumalakwa. tapos naalala ko na dumating ung time na parang c marj eh nagkaroon na rin sia ng sarili niang friends sa thales nun..so parang hindi na ganun ung time namin for each other tulad ng dati na basta may kailangan or matripan lang, kahit kaming dalawa lang eh owkei na. naalala ko pa ung math camp. hindi kasama si abychu nun taps si nikko eh kagroup ko nga pero siempre pag matutulog na iba na ng lugar. grabe nun, wala talaga akong kasama kahit isa. si aby kasama nia sina bea, therese at thea taps si marj naman kasama nun si leah. sobrang naiiyak na ko nun and i remembered that the moment i got home umiyak talaga ako. taps nung feeling ko na mas importante na para kay marj ung tcb kaysa samin siempre sobrang hard ung feelings ko nun...sobrang sad. at ngaun naman AYOKONG mangyari ulit un kina maton, kina banir at sa mga close friends ko sa mendel. Actually nagstart na na maramdaman ko un. may one time si yani sa mga friends nia sa newton...parang ang bigat sa loob, ganun. taps siguro kung makikita ko si banir na may ibang kasama na hindi rin mendel sa corridor malulunkot ako, SOBRA. at siguro pag nangyari din na makita ko si maton na gala mode na hindi kaming mendel ang kasama SOBRANG malulunkot din ako. hai, naiiyak na talaga ako kanina. Pag kasing alam mo na kung ano ung feeling, alam mo what to expect if ever na nangyari un, eh mas masakit. I really value my friends so much. Alam ko na hindi naman forever na andyan sila at ang selfish ko naman kung hindi ko sila papayagang magkaroon ng bagong friends pero alam mo un, ung hindi mo pa rin mapigilan ung feeling na parang iniiwan ka nila. pero SOBRANG thankful pa rin ako na kahit na ano pang mga bagay na ang nangyari hinding hindi pa rin ako iniiwan nina Abychu at Nikko. Mahal na mahal ko talga yang dalawang yan. I'm so thankful na sa tatlong taon naming pagsasama eh hinding hindi pa niwla ako iniiwan. I'm so thankful talaga to have friends like them. Kung puwedeng ang lahat ng bagay ay mag-stay na lang sa present state nila na kaming lahat close close. Pero alam kong that will never happen. Life goes on. hai. pero loneliness pa rin ako. Basta, natuto na ko ngaun. Ipaglalaban ko lahat ng friends ko. Hindi ko hahayaang mawala sila sakin. They can still be my close friends kahitna may bago na rin silang friends. Hindi ko hahayaang ang pagkakaroon nila ng bagong mga kaibigan ang magbubuwag sa friendship namin. Kung dati siguro medyo nadistract ako kaya hindi ko rin naipaglaban ang friendship namin ni marj ngaun alam ko na kung pano ipaglalaban ang friendship ko sa 2 ko pang best friend at sa lahat ng close friends ko. Kapag friendship talaga ang pinaguusapan oh, nanghihina ako. Nahanap ko na siguro ung weak spot ko. Kasi naman eh my worst fear would be to feel alone and be alone in this world. at ang mga friends ko ang mga taong naglalayo sakin sa fear kong un. Kaya sobrang naapektuhan ako dun sa last episode ng alice academy which is entitled friendship is forever kasi nagpakita ng scene na aalis ung best friend nia. hai. Kaya ko toh. I don't want to be selfish. Sana lang I won't experience my worst fear again kasi hindi ko na talaga kakayanin. I just have to be thankful siguro sa lahat ng mga friends na meron ako. Mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat!....
you know you love me
xoxo
7:23:00 PM
Y 6.16.2006
Another Senior Week
Another week of my senior life has passed. Another gruesome, tiresome, GC week. I have started to accpet the fact that I am now part of the section IV-Copernicus but my heart is still with III-Mendel. I guess it's still too early to get bonded with Coper but then again, we already had fun moments, like our Filipino class yesterday wherein we showcased our talents. I have made new friends, acquaintances and no enemies, I'm glad. I guess I haven't bonded with everybody yet. I'm already comfortable with talking to Karen, Katrina, Annjanette, Marvie, Kathleen, Cesca, Nicole, Blessie, Jennifer, Arvin, Mark, Kyle, Kevin, Karl, and Benjie who are all new faces. But even if we're already starting to get to know each other, there's still a huge gap. One cannot stop himself/herself from being a bit afraid of the BIG 5 or those people on top. At first, I share their feelings. Kyle is actually my seatmate in Math and Chem. and when I can't understand something I was scared to ask him because he might think I'm such an idiot for asking such a simple question or he might not even answer. But after some time, you would realize that they are just like us. It's just that they're a bit different from the people we used to be with. I guess at first I was kind of overwhelmed, actually I still am, because this is the first time I experienced the boys being more academically inclined than the girls in a class. This is also the firt time I've experienced tension because everyone seems to be trying to prove that they have something. I've noticed some changes with the people I used to know. Sam, who I can say was not that active in Mendel when it comes to groupings or other school-related work is now giving all she's got. Jude, who was only one of the boys now seems to be focusing himself in his studies. I am glad with the changes. I think that's one of the good things of being in Coper. I can say that it might seem like a survival of the fittest wherein if you don't join the flow, you will die, same with Coper. If you don't start being "GC", you will feel like "napagiwanan ka na". There have already been many surprises and I'm sure there are still more to come. I'm ready to face the challenge. I will make sure that this year will be my best. There will be no more distractions. I wouldn't say, no more going out because that's already a part of me and I can't remove that habit of going out. It would just be a world with my studies, my friends from Mendel, and my best friends in the whole world. I wouldn't give any attention to love life or crushes or whatever. I am determined to excell this year. My goal is not to outshine other people but my goal is to shine with a different light. Next week is another week. It'll be another week of being GC. I won't complain because this is life. But, you know what, sometimes I feel like I'm so alone even if I'm surrounded by a multitude of people. I feel like there's an emptiness inside me. Even if I'm with my friends, when I stop for a moment and think, there seems to be something missing. I can't point out what and that's what bothers me. I do hope that whatever is missing. I would soon be able to find it. As I face the new responsibilities, challenges and endeavors that God will give me, I will face them with courage and with a ready heart knowing that in the end, I will succeed. ~ P.S. I would just like to post a picture of Mendel when we went out last week...^_^
you know you love me
xoxo
7:12:00 PM
Y 6.13.2006
Allipin
Alipin Shamrock Di ko man maamin Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin Di ko man maisip Sa pagtulog ikaw ang panaginip Malabo man ang aking pag-iisip Sana'y pakinggan mo ang sigaw nitong damdamin
[chorus:] Ako"y alipin mo kahit hindi batid Aaminin ko minsan ako"y manhid Sana at iyong nariring Sayong yakap ako"y nasasabik...
Ayoko sa iba Sayo ako ay hindi magsasawa Ano man ang iyong sabihin Umasa ka ito ay diringgin Madalas man na parang aso"t pusa Giliw sa piling mo ako ay masaya
[chorus:] Ako"y alipin mo kahit hindi batid Aaminin ko minsan ako"y manhid Sana at iyong nariring Sayong yakap ako"y nasasabik...
[coda:] Pilit mang abutin ang mga tala Basta"t sa akin wag kang mawawala Ako"y alipin mo kahit hindi batid Aaminin ko minsan ako"y manhid Sana ay iyong naririnig Sayong yakap ako"y nasasabik Pagkat ikaw lang ang nais makatabi Malamig man o mainit ang gabi Nais ko sana iparating na ikaw lamang Ang siyang aking iibigin
hay, wala lang, natripan ko lang tong song nung narinig ko sa commercial ng jewel...kaht hindi naman ako avid fan ng jewel eh maganda pa rin ung song...kaya lang wala pang dedication...kanino ko kaya idededicate yan?..hmm...cna yani may dedication na..ahihi...
you know you love me
xoxo
10:36:00 PM
Y 6.12.2006
Reasons
What is a MaScian? Who can be considered as real MaScians? What are the qualities that MaScians possess which make them different from others, or are they really different? I consider myself a MaScian in mind, heart, and soul.
A MaScian, according to “outsiders,” people who see us but do not know us, is an intelligent person who has the excellence to be part of Manila Science High School, one of the most prestigious schools in the country, entitling himself/herself of the prestige that comes with the school. One may think that being a MaScian is just all about brains, intelligence and academic excellence, but those are not just the factors that deem MaScians different or special. To be a MaScian, one shouldn’t just be academically excellent but should also be socially responsible. To be called a MaScian, one should have a holistic personality, having both a tough mind and a tender heart. What sets MaScians apart from others is their capability to excel but have the ability to be humble about it.
Why do I consider myself a MaScian? I am a MaScian because I live up to the school’s mission and vision. I believe that I am a factor and I contribute to the improvement of the school by helping in upholding its tradition of excellence through focusing on my studies as well as developing the values that I have. I do believe that upon becoming a MaScian, I just didn’t pass by the school. After each year, I smile to think that during the past year, I did my part in upholding my school’s excellence.
MaScians are different because they gave a more contemporary term to being studious. Here, nobody is called a nerd, we deem ourselves as merely Grade Conscious or GC. I am not a MaScian just because I consider myself as grade conscious but I deem myself a MaScian because I can be grade conscious and still enjoy life at the same time. I am a MaScian because I am able to set goals for myself, achieve them but enjoy what I am doing and have fun along the way.
I am a MaScian in mind, heart, and soul. When I entered Manila Science three years ago, I had a different personality. Along my journey as a MaScian, I have been molded into a new person. I think the way a MaScian should think. I view things as a MaScian should view it, critically and analytically. I feel how a MaScian would feel. I balance my emotions and insights making sure that the head and the heart works at the same time, not letting either one take over.
A MaScian, as a whole, is a unique person, who has a mind and a heart, given the right, necessary tools and knowledge by a prestigious school, tried and tested by time, to guide him/her in the journey ahead. I am a MaScian, the reasons justify who I am.
you know you love me
xoxo
5:33:00 PM
Y 6.11.2006
Ang Unang Linggo ng Eskuwela
kung sigurong ikukumpara ko ang lahat ng unang linggo ng eskwela mula noong pumasok ako sa paraalan sa sta. eskolastika akademiya eh itong linggong nagdaan na siguro ang pinakakakaiba. hay, hindi ko talaga kayang magtagalog ng diretso. neweiz, weird nga ung first week. i won't say pangit pero torture at mejo super kakapanibago. i already told u a bit about the first day, the upcoming days eh almost the same. nung tuesday mejo wala lang..wednesday naman ang naaalala ko lang eh parang nagkareunion ang mendel sa mcdo nun...thurs. eh napakita na namin for the first time kung anong kaya ng coper pag magkakasama. kac nagpagawa ng song si mrs. gozo about the class. it goes something like this:
Itong Copernicus, totoong magalang Karapat-dapat lang ang mapapabilang Sa talento't gilas ay di nagkukulang pero wag husgahan di kami mayabang
Well, kung ako nga ang tatanungin eh mejo mayabang nga ung song pero hay, yan na ung nagawa namin eh. Anyway, we tried na wed. magpractice pero walang place at di complete so thurs. lunch time na lang...ang galing ng ginawa ni kyle na may shobeedobeedo at paparapapa. neweiz kaht mga 20 minutes lang kaming nagpractice eh napraise naman ung gawa namin. hai, speaking of lunch...ang laking adjustment ang gagawin ng stomach ko. from 2nd year na 10 ang lunch to 3rd year na 1 pm balik na naman sa 10 am ang lahat ng lunch. hindi na ko sanay, tsaka hindi rin naman ako makakain dahil sa braces, so eion...pero i still manage naman...we have a new set of teachers na unique in their own way...anjan si mam erencio na 1st subj. na instead of magcng eh lalu kaming bumabalik sa pagtulog, taps si mam gumboc na adviser namn..mabait pero pag nagalit eh nagalit talaga...c mam quintal na pang3rd year ko na tong teacher sia...c mam gozo, na owkei naman, si sir bautista na hindi mabilang ang sabi ng "tama ba?" pero kaka-amaze sia sa p6, suerte namn, andian din si mrs. francisco na nanghihingi ng midicul, tsaka puro quiz at assign. walang lesson..si mam carlos na strict, at most likely laging nagkaklase, si mam correa na ala matrix ang paggalaw, si mam abadilla na hindi namin maintndhn dahil french sia ng french...si mam pangilinan na teach ko na rin nung 2nd year tsaka si mam aniban na marunong naman magturo ng compsci..at last isang teacher sa compsci na nagtuturo...hehe, neweiz...mejo nagkabonding ang girls nung thurs. ata, truth or truth hehe, pro mendel pa rin ang bonding namin sa coper...taps lague kaming magkakasabay umuwi...nung fri. eh election, i won the post for pres. parang auto kac wala akong kalaban pero that does not necessarily mean na gusto nilang lahat na ako ang maging pres. pero neweiz, natuto naman na ko, hindi nadadaan ang mga bagay sa katarayan...i'm already changing that..hehe, ang bait ko na nga eh, pero sabi ni cha kaht wala akong expression eh mukha pa rin akong mataray...hay, unang week pa lang pala eh parang ang gulo na ng buhay ko..kac naman eh, ung mga may bitterness sakin...hay...neweiz...enjoi ung friday kac nanood ng the omen ung mendel after nanlibre si alyssa sa kfc...so lunkot ni mel kac ndi nkasama si cha..pero neweiz..nakasama si em..galing siang las pinyas...taps nagpapic kami, excited na ko sa pic..hehe, pero hindi ko pa nakukuha eh...hay, time really flies so fast noh? parang kahapon lang eh badillo ako...ngaung copernicus na fourth year na... ~ Neweiz, sa ibang topic naman, eh napanood ko rin ung last two episodes ng alice academy...mejo walang kuentang ending pero first season pa lang naman eh...mangiyak-ngiyak ako dun sa last episode..hindi dahil sobrang gusto ko ung episode pero dahil i can relate so much..kac c hotaru akala ni mikan eh aalis na sia...engot naman kac c mikan pero si hotaru eh weird din, kac hindi sia marunong magpakita ng affection..pero mahal nia si mikan noh...grabe nung nagugudbye sila naaalala ko na naman si marj...kung gano umiyak si mikan, higit pa don ung iniyak ko nung umalis sia..mustah na kaya sia ngaun? mga more than two months na rin kaming hindi nagkakausap....hay... ~ Sa kabilang dako uli, na-antig ako dun sa cd ng mendel...wala lang, parang andun lahat lahat ng happenings ng buong taon eh...lahat ng moments na shinare namin, mga moments na hangang memories na lang..hindi na maibabalik... ~ Ang buhay talaga oh, unfair...kung kailang kampante ka na at kung kailan naeenjoi mo na ang buhai, dun biglang magkakaroon ng malaking pagbabago, dun biglang mawawala ang lahat ng nagpapasaya sa buhai mo...nagpapasalamat na lang ako na kaht apat na taon na ang lumipas andyan pa rin ang dalawa ko pang natitirang best friends dito...c abychu at nikko, na hanggang ngaun eh hindi pa rin nawawala ang pagsasamahan namin..sana friendship really is forever...! ^_^
you know you love me
xoxo
11:33:00 PM
Y 6.05.2006
First Day
waah...eto na siguro ang pinaka-haggard, pinaka-nakakapagod at pinaka-eiwan na first day ng klase...as usual, gcng ng 5, taps aun aus ng stuff...pagdating namin sa skul nakasabay ko agad si Kim...compliment agad ang binigay tunkol sa hair, naks...gulat siempre sia sa braces...pagdating sa line siempre hinug ko lahat ng mga friends..same reaction sila...nice...pero grabe talaga, hindi ako makapagsalita ng maays dahil sa laso ko...inaasar nga ako nila raphael, ph at cm eh...hehe, pero owkei lang..newei, first subject namin eng. may teacher agad...nung morning may balak pa kong magpakaresponsible kasi aspiring to be pres. of copernicus...neweiz...taps nun, math, meeting our adviser...ayos naman sia..mabait...at least maays adviser namin dis year...mga classmates ko? uhm..well pwede na rin, pero hindi pa rin kasing owkei tulad nung sa first day nung mendel...taps the whole day grabe may teacher kami..walang free except lunch...hindi pa ko nakakain dahl nga sa aking braces...nakakaasar, nagugutom na nga ako eh...taps nung bandang hapon eh nakakapagod nang magintroduce and stuff....mejo pagod na pagod na kami...nung french eh nagkabotohan ng officers...pres. ako pero after that parang naicp ko, ayoko atang maging pres. ng coper...mas feel ko kung c ralph magiging pres. namin, eiwan ko ba...hay, naaliw pala ako sa french kasi ba naman convo's in french na hindi naman namin maintindihan...ginagaya lang namin si Mrs. Abadilla...hay...neweiz...that was our last subj. taps eh gimik na with mendel, kumain kami sa McDo...kuentuhan pero sobrang nahihirapan pa rin akong magsalita..hay..mejo hindi kagandahan ang araw ngaun..u know y? may epal kasi...epal na ang sama lagi ng tingin sakin...aaaahhh...bhala sia...basta alam ko i'm not doing anything wrong...at hindi ko kasalanan ung nangyari sa kanila..problema nila un noh...neweiz...not looking forward to the next school days..pero puede na rin...at todo GC na talaga ako this year....kailangang makipagsabayan sa mga great minds eh...hay...buhay...AYOKO NA!!!
you know you love me
xoxo
10:20:00 PM
Y 6.04.2006
I'm Back
waaah...nandito na ulit ako sa aking 2nd home...asa manila na ko...waah..parang back to reality na..ginising na ko sa isang napakahabang panaginip...pag nasa pampanga ako parang nasa iba akong mundo parang ibang reality parang pag andun ako wala akong problema at relax na relax ako..pag andito sa manila parang ibig sabihin eh serioso na toh...eto na ung buhay mo...neweiz...sobrang kabado na ko ngaun while am typing this blog post..hindi ko nga alam kung anong una kong itatype eh...well, kachat ko si mikh ngaun..at well usap-usap tunkol sa upcoming senior year...hay, buhay, parang kahapon lang nagsisimula ako sa badillo, ngaun patapos na ko sa coper...neweiz, before all the hassle that the new school year will bring, kuento ko muna ung araw ko ngaun... ~ well it started nang nagising ako kanina ng mga 10 am...taps siempre ayos ng gamit, last minute pagiimpake dahil babalik na nga sa manila...pero may sked pa kac ako ng clean-up, parang follow-up sa facial so nagmadali ako papunta dun, taps internet habang hinihintay ko ung mommy ko na sunduin ako...nung papunta kami 5 kami, sumama si nikko at lian samin ni nina dahil pupunta daw kami sa SM Mall of Asia...so aun, hindi ko namalayan asa Manila na kami. ang bilis nga ng biyahe eh. binaba kami ng mom ko sa Market! Market! kasi may orientation ekek sia dun para sa pagpunta nia sa States...hindi kami sasama...si Lian lang and my dad...dahil sabi nga ni Lian "may future kami sa Philippines"..hehe, two years lang naman un eh....pero the pay is good $3,000 ang pagkakarinig ko...aun, taps pagbaba namin sa M! M! eh naghanap kami ng makakainan, pero before we can order sabi ng tita ko, na susundo samin, sa SM MoA na lang daw kami kumain so aun, dinaanan lang namin ung M! M!...pagdating namin ng mall of asia, ang laki, super! pero ang dami rin namang tao, grabe...accdng. to the show na napanood namin kagabi, it's the same as 5 mega malls at kasing laki ng vatican city, can hold 5M pipz, and its parking can hold 5K cars...heck may mga nageexcursion pa nga eh...aun, ang pakay pala ng mga sibs ko kung bakit sila sumama eh para makapagice-skating..pagdating namin may nagshoshow so hindi sia open to public...nabum out sila, kumain muna kami sa Tokyo, Tokyo...then dumatin ung daddy ko...taps bukas na pala skating rink...hindi kami sumama ni Nina, ang dami kasing mga bata eh, parang hindi ako at home so naglibot libot nalang kami with Tita Cristy...pagbalik namin sa rink ng mga 530 wala pa si mommy from her conference...so tambay lang kami...taps nakita pa namin si Alicia Mayer who looks the same as she does on TV...then nagulat kami kac nanlibre si Daddy sa Gloria Jeans...taps nakapunta ako sa Fully Booked..grabe, Heaven ko na ang fully booked..lahat na ng books na i'm planning to buy eh andun lahat...all in all mga 20 buks siguro un..haay...plano kong bumalik dun para mabili lahat ng buks na gusto ko...hai, and then after namin sa gloria jeans eh andito na ko sa bahay...really excited yet really nervous...grabe...una, hinihintay ko ung magiging reaction ng pipol sa hitsura ko, mejo iba dun sa huli nila akong nakita...excited din akong magkuento sa summer at excited akong makita kung pano nagbago ang iba...pero so nervous ako sa coper...sana maging owkei naman ung section naman...i have my fingers crossed...this is hoping for the best...neweiz, hanggang dito na lang muna...ttyl...sobrang nervous ko na talaga..bukas hindi na naman nian ako mapakali pag asa car na kami papuntang school...hay buhay...I'm Back!A
you know you love me
xoxo
9:12:00 PM
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