Y 1.30.2006
Sadness....
hai...ilang araw na rin akong ndi nakakapagpost dito...grabeh, sa sobrang dami na tlga ng bagay na nangyari sakin akala ko makaka-5 posts na ko, the least. pero ngaun, wla pa kahat konti. wala kac ako lague sa mood. tinatamad. walang gana. depressed? ndi naman maxado kac ndi pa naman naapektuhan ang ibang bagay pero everytime i think of that...i feel so sad...kac naman...i thought, i guess we thought na pag wala na...we'll be happy na...akala namn...akala, akala...taps ngaun ano? kami rin ang nagsusuffer...well, i guess mostly sia...pero i can't deny na masakit din para sakin...hay naku, lalu pa ngaun na everytime may makita akong kakilala ko sasabihin sakin, hindi na sila...and?? parang ibig sabihin ba nun, automatic? hay,,,siempre ndi naman ako makakaontra at hindi ko maexplain without revealing too much so umiiling na lang ako...alam naman na cguro nila ang ibig sabhn nun...hay..taps isa pang bagay..dati excited ako sa prom..waah, ngaun ndi na...first thing, my gown and stuff..parang ang gulo eh dati excited pa ko sa mga bagay na un..next is the date...naku, lahat na lang ng tao tinanng ako kung may date na ko..or worse, tinatanng nila ko kung tinanng na nia ko...or kung pano nia ko tinanng...hai...siempre iiling lang ako ulit nun...sasabhn kong hindi...hay...ndi ko tlga alam ang gagawin ko...hindi tlaga..sobrang naguguluhan ako...hay...sana, sana...sana...everything will turn out all right....aykong mangyari ung kinatatakutan nia...na he'll just make me wait for nothing...kung natatakot sia...ano pa kaia ako...hai...hai...life tlga oh..bakt ang unfair...
you know you love me
xoxo
7:21:00 PM
Y 1.27.2006
Sliced
I'm depressed but I'm quite happy. Crazy? I think not. Insane? Maybe. Difference? No idea. Ang dami nang bagay na nangyari sakin for the past few days. The good, the bad and the ugly. Hindi ko na kaiang inarrate so pasensya. This is my shortest post ever. Basta ang alam ko nalang kahit ano mang mangyari, mahal at mahal pa rin....
you know you love me
xoxo
8:29:00 PM
Y 1.21.2006
My Heart
OMG. owkei, so anong araw ngaun? Jan. 21. Wala namang maxadong nangyari. Gumawa lang kami ng scrapbook ni Kim at Rachelle dito sa bahay pero sinundo ko sila sa SM. Eion. Hay. Kakatapos ko lang basahin ang latest post sa Southern High. Grabe, sobrang affected talaga ko. Bakit ba? Sabi ni Abychu kac daw nakakarelate ako...hahaha, ako daw c hally, c ayan c chuva (luv ni hally), c charlie c chuva (friend ni ayan na may gusto kay hally), c raymond c chuva na isa pa nilang friend, taps si ren c nikko (guy best friend ni hally) at c joyz si abychu(girl best friend ni hally) taps si rachel si chuva (first love ni ayan na epal na ang sarap patayin). Well, masasabi ko wala na kong problema sa rachel ng buhai ko. Wala na talaga. Hindi katulad dati na tuwing nakikita ko siya eh para akong takure na nagboboil ng hindi lang 100 degrees kundi 1000 degrees celsius ata. Ganun kagrabe ang init ng dugo ko sa kania. Pero ngaun, pag nakikita ko sia, wala lang parang hangin na lang sia na parang walang taong nakatau sa kinatatauan nia. Ganun, so kung sia eh may problema sakin ngaun. Bahala siya. Wala na nga rin palang charlie sa buhay ko ngaun. May kaniya kaniya na kaming buhay. Hindi na tulad ng dati. Wala na tlga. Slight na lang. Pero affected pa rin ako sa story. Eiwan ko ba. Hayaan na...bakit ko ba maxadong pinoproblema ang isang fanfic? Dapat ang problemahin ko ang sarili kong mga problema. Actually, meron ba? Wala naman maxado. Dati marami biglang sa isang iglap naubos na lahat. Basta ang alam ko eh masaia ako. Huwag mo nang itanong kung bakit ako masaya dahil hindi mo rin maiintindihan. Sa katunayan di nga dapat ako masaya eh. Dapat nga mejo malunkot ako at frustrated pero hindi ko nararamdaman yun dahil sa bandang huli alam ko na masaya pa rin ako. Basta un na nun. Naaliw din nga pala ako sa mommy ko kac for once eh normal siya. Biruin mo ba naman eh tinanng ako kung may date na ko sa prom, tinanng ako kung may nagtanong na sakin. Nung sinabi ko sa kaniya na wala pa tinawanan ba naman ako at cnabing kawawa naman daw ako, magjeJS ako na walang date. C nikko na lang daw ung date ko. Hehe. C Nikko lang kac ang kilala niya na friend ko na guy. Edi tawa lang ako taps nakuwento ko pa sa kania ang ibang stuff relating sa prom which i didn't expect kasi pagdating sa mga ganung bagay parang sobrang uptight ng mom ko eh. Akala ko nga eh pagbabawalan pa nia ko na magkadate sa prom pero biglang siya pa ang nagsasabing dapat eh may date ako. Well, masaya naman ako. Hehe at hindi lang ako masaya para sa sarili ko. Masaya ako para sa ibang tao. Tulad ng aking pinakamamahal na best friend na nasa Canada na ngayon. Masayang masaya siya dun kaya masaya din ako para sa kania. Hindi naman ako nagalit or nahurt na hindi ako ung unang nakaalam kaht na dati siya ung unang nakaalam nung sakin. Ang importante kac eh kaht na magkalau na kami eh may alam pa rin kami sa buhay ng isa't isa. Hindi kami masyadong nagkakwentuhan dahil gmagwa nga kami ng project pero nung may cnabi akong sumthng hehe, nagulat ba naman. Pero matagal naman na niyang alam un eh. hehe. Masaya din ako para kay Vanir. Nagulat lang ako as in sobrang gulat na gulat pero masaya naman ako na masaya ka na at wag nang kumaliwa...kumanan ka na. Haha. Hay. Basta. Maganda ang Narnia. Hehe. Medyo hindi ko na matandaan ung ibang scenes sa book pero I think they did justice naman eh. Hindi lang nga siya masyadong brutal. Lalo na ung battle scenes kahit konting dugo walang dumanak. Well, disney kac ang nagproduce so parang so it's applicable for GP3 at child friendly. Ah basta, nakanood na ko. Un ung importante kac ba naman tama bang lahat ng dapat kong kasamang manood eh naglahong parang bula at lahat ay may kaniya-kaniyang lakad? Haha. Minggit na lang ung mga gustong manood na hindi pa nakakanood, dbah Nikko??? hehe. Ang sobrang gusto ko naman nang mapanood eh ung Memoirs of a Geisha. Sa Feb. 22 pa un at sana wala nang lakad sina abychu para may kasama akong manood. Naaliw din nga pala ako kay Mikhail kac nakapagbigay siya ng matinong advice kagabi. hehe. Natuwa nga ako at totoo nga ung cnabi niya. Hindi ko naicp un eh. Hehe. Gud Luck nalang pala sa kaniya at congrats!!! Jan. 24 na kac sa Tuesday at un na un. Sadyang mixed lang ang emotions ko lately. Pero masaya pa rin ang dominant na feeling. Hay. Sana lang eh magtuloy-tuloy na ang pagiging hapee ko. Pero hay baka selfish na naman ako. Hehe. Hindi naman na cguro. Basta gud luck at congrats na lang sa lahat ng mga pipol. Oh kay Marj, dapat by Jan. 15, 2007 masasabihan din kita ng Congrats ha. Vanir, dapat by Dec. 20, 2006 masasabhn din kta ng I'm happy for you! At sana one of these days eh masabihan ko rin ang sarili ko. Haha. Eion. that's all for now. ttfn..
Quote: +~Be yourself and do what you want because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind~+ - from Dr. Seuss + naaliw ako sa quote kasi ang galing at ang ganda. +
you know you love me
xoxo
5:33:00 PM
Y 1.16.2006
Asa
Hay, palogout na ko, paDC na ko pero bigla ko na lamang naicpang magpost dito. Wala lang. Trip ko lang. Gusto ko lang isalaysay ang kalunkutang nadarama ko. Asa kasi ako eh, asa na naman. Tapos ang selfish ko pa. Oo na, selfish. Hay. Eion, mangiyak-ngiyak na nga ako kanina eh, Thea kasi. Hay. So eion, ganun na nga. Asa kasi ako masyado. Oo na, iintindihin ko nalang sia na kailangan nia ring isaalang-alang ang iniicp ng ibang tao tunkol sa kania. Oo na. Hay. Nalaman ko ngaun na baka kinamumuhian na rin ako nung kinamumuhian ko dati. Bumaliktad kac ang mundo. Ako napunta sa taas, siya naman sa baba. So ngayon alam na niya ang nararamdaman ko dati nung siya ang panira sa buhay ko. So ngayon feeling niya ako naman ang panira sa buhay niya? Well, bahala siya. Di ko na siya pagtutuunan ng pansin. Tapos may isang bagong panira. Matagal na kong napupuno eh. As in. Sa lahat na lang kasi ng bagay pumapapel siya. Feeling niya. Tapos ngayon pumapapel na naman siya sa buhay ko. Hay. So ganun? Edi magsama sila. Kung puwede lang nga gaganti ako sa kania kaya lang pag ginawa ko un eh I'll stoop down to her level. Ayoko nga. Tawagin na akong maarte, mataray at lahat lahat na pero never ako matatawag na malandi. Subukan nio lang. Magkakamatayan muna tayo. Hay. So ganun. Well, kawalan naman niya un pag ginawa nia yun eh. Hindi ko kawalan. Oo, kawalan ko rin pero hay. Hay. Kung pwede lang talaga sanang gumanti. Pero pag ginawa ko un lalu lamang akong mapapasama kaya hwag na lang. Tsaka sabi ng dalawng friends ko pag ginawa ko un eh wag ko na daw clang kausapin. Double meaning kac pag ginawa ko un. Pero hay. Pag nagkuento nga ako wag nio nang tatanungin kung cno ang tinutukoy ko. Isang tao lang. Wala nang iba. Feeling kasi ng iba dalawa...kahit na dati dalawa nga ang kinukwento ko. Feeling naman ng iba, tatlo. Si Mam Hedia walang magawa sa buhay. Hay. Eion. Sabi ni maton ang word na prom sa mendel ay kaakibat ng excitement ni Nica. Ows? Ngayon hindi na. Wala na ang excitement. Parang nawala na ang essence ng prom dahil dun sa nalaman ko kanina. Hay, kung pwede lamang batukan ang sarili eh ginwa ko na. Bakit ba kasi lagi akong asa? I expect too much from him. Tapos ang selfish ko rin na mga sariling paghihirap ko lang ang naiisip ko. Hayaan na nga. Hay. wala lang naman tong post na toh eh. Naglalabas lang ng sama ng loob. Eion. Bahala na. What will come will come. What will happen will happen. Kailangan lang maghintay. Hay. Nagawa ko nang maghintay ng sobrang tagal kaya kaya ko pa. Hay. Nica wag ka kasing asa. !!! Wag!!!! Isang libong beses ko na ata sinabi yan sa sarili ko pero hindi na ko natuto. Maraming beses ko na rin sinabi kay Vanir na natuto na ko. Hindi na ko asa. Pero ano? Lague nalang. hay. cie na...gandang gabi sa lahat nalang...;'-(
you know you love me
xoxo
9:34:00 PM
Y 1.15.2006
As the Saying Goes....
"If you Love Someone, Set him Free. If he doesn't come back, it was never meant to be." While I was lying down this afternoon, this thought suddenly hit me like a meteor about to hit the surface of the earth. There's not much goings-on in my life today since I just stayed home and not even a single person got in touch with me even through sms. Anyhow, as the thought crossed my mind another question popped up. The saying is incomplete. It only says what will happen if he doesn't come back. What if he did? What if he did come back? What does that mean? Does that mean our love was really meant to be? Who would know? Who made that saying in the first place? Only that person can continue that saying. But, I won't rely that much on those silly li'l sayings. They don't dictate what will happen or what things really mean. They're just the simplest and silliest way of making yourself feel better. I really don't have anything to post so I'll just place a song. What song? An OPM song by MYMP, Sa Kanya.
Sa Kanya by MYMP
Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa Pagkatapos ng ulan Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin
Chorus: Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin Sa kanya pa rin sasaya, bulong ng puso ko Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya
At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa Alaala ng buong magdamag Kung sakali mang isipin na ito'y wala sa akin Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin
Repeat Chorus 2x
Adlib: Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh Sa kanya.
you know you love me
xoxo
8:04:00 PM
Y 1.14.2006
Lights, Camera, Action!
Lights, Camera, Action!....Waah. Nawindang ako. Nagtext si Maton kahapon na walang shooting taps bigla nalang siang nagtext kagabi na may shooting. 8 am, paco park, BAWAL ANG LATE!!! aba, tinext ko un sa lahat ng tao, bawal ang late. Taps anong nangyari? Well, dahil may lakad din ang sis ko at ung lakad niya eh official skul business so nauna siang naligo sakin. Kinalabasan late ako ng 10 minutes. Pero at least ako, 10 minutes lang. Ang pinakahuling dumating samin eh 11 am na dumating. Tama ba un? 14 kami kanina. Sa bahay kami nina ET sa Caloocan nagshooting. Ang astig nung bahay nila, ang cute. Hehe. Ang cute nung parang mini-sala sa taas. Dun ung tambayan namin. Dun ung set ng shooting. Habang naghihintay eh pakainkain lang, wala lang. At naaliw ako kac nakapagunli ako ngaun. Taps eh nung umalisk ami papuntang 5th ave. eh mejo pumapatak na ung ulan. Pagbaba namn sa 5th ave eh buhos na ulan. Eion, sinundo naman kami ni edwardson. Naka-car sia pero sa tingin ko eh mga 10 lang ang kasya dun eh 15 kami kaya kandungan. Aliw naman eh, bonding time. Eion taps nanood muna kami ng eat bulaga ng konti bago nag-shoot taps nag-shooting na. After that kumain kami. Kinapalan na namin ang mukha namin na sabihin kay ET na dun kami kakain kac mga walang perang pambili ng pagkain ang mga pipol. Eion, taps cont. shooting hanggang matapos kami ng mga 3:30. Ang bilis nga eh. Ang saya saya kac parang wala lang. Parang normal lang na tambay kami at kuwentuhan. Hehe. After that eh uwi na...ung iba. Hehe. Asa pa na uuwi agad kami siempre dance revo muna sa SM Manila. Kailangan ko ring bumili ng stuff for my portfolio. Eion, grabe nakakapagod pero fulfilling. Ang saya. Pero sobrang pagod na pagod na kami. Nagkayayaang kumain pero nauna na kami. Ako, c Maton, C ninyo at c Em eh nagpunta sa National para bumili taps eiwan ko ba pero naicpan na naming umuwi kaht wala cla. Feel ko nga baka nagalit cla eh. Sorry po. Eion edi siempre naantk na naman ako sa Jeep, lague naman eh. Hindi ko nga namalayan biglang sabi ni em eh malapit na kami. Buti nga may kasabay pa kong umuwi eh. Eion, ndi ko rin namalayan nasa hows na ko. Wala lang. Masaya naman tong araw na toh. Isang araw ng karagdagang bonding moments ng Mendel pipol. Cna chad kung ano2 pang naiicp na kumukuha ng ebidensya chu chu. Basta, wag nio nang alamin kung ano yun. hehe. Eion...masasabi ko lang eh sana maganda talaga ang kalabasan ng movie at disappointed ako kac ndi kami natuloi nina abychu at nikko eh gustong gusto ko nang manood ng Narnia pero wlang kasama kaia next time nalang. Hai.
Isang bagay na di dapat malaman ng mga magulang ng Mendel: ~Kung magtatanong ang mga magulang (lalo na ang nanay ni CM) kung nasaan ang kanilang mga anak eh siguradong hindi ang katotohanan ang kanilang makukuha. ~Kung magtatanong ang mga magulang (lalu na ang nanay ni Marayka at Luis) kung may gf/bf na ba ang anak nila, pag ang sagot ay wala un ang isasagot at kapag meron naman ay "eiwan ko po" ang isasagot ~Kung magtatanong ang mga magulang (lalo na ang nanay ni Em) kung bakit lagueng late ang uwi ng anak maaring isagot ang "Hindi ko po alam" at hindi imemention ang gf/bf ng bata bilang dahilan. ~Kung magtatanong ang mga magulang kung anong oras natapos ang practice o kahit ano pa man siguradong may dagdag na mga 3-5 oras sa sasabihan, nakalaan para sa paglalakwatsa.
P.S. pic muna ng bDT lalagay ko..hehe..la lang...trip :-)
you know you love me
xoxo
7:46:00 PM
Y 1.10.2006
Cool With You
"Cool With You" by Jennifer Love Hewitt
Late last night I was goin through some old things When i Saw a picture of you and my best friend It reminded me of day when you were mine You had a way that always let me hear with a smile I want those sweet days back agian Cause baby
[Chorus:] Its sunny day But you're not around That dog gone rain might as well be pouring down Its such a shame Cause your heart on the ground Just wanna be cool with you again
Sometimes I sit By the fire and reminisce About the time we spent infront of it And that old flame will never be the same Until you come back and rekindle it I just wanna share my heart with you again Cause babe
[Chorus]
I fall asleep at night And often see you here In my dreams Holding me But then I wake up and I realize that you're Not here with me It hurts so much I gotta have you back babe
[Chorus x2]
you know you love me
xoxo
7:47:00 PM
Y 1.07.2006
Bagong Buhay
Mabuhay! Sa kadahilanang nagpost na si Abychu sa blog nia ng post in the Filipino Language eh, ganun na rin ako. Matagal ko nang gustong magpost sa Tagalog dahil hindi naman ako American/British para gawing pure English 'tong blog ko. Hindi rin naman ako inglisera in real life. Actually natutuwa nga ako sa sarili ko eh. Kaya kong pagsamahin ang dalawang lenguahe at isang dialekto sa isang usapan. Dahil sa tagal na ng panahong nakatira ako sa Manila eh hindi nako masyadong makapag-straight Kapampangan, eion kaya may halong tagalog at english words. Na-inspire din ako ni Bob Ong na gamitin ang sariling wika sa pagsusulat ng mga kung ano-anong bagay na gusto kong isulat.
Masaya. Masaya ako. Oo, aaminin ko. Bakit naman ako masaya? Una, dahil enjoy kasama ang BDT. Laging siguradong enjoy kaht tatlo lang kayo. Tama ba Maton? Vanir? Na-hurt ako ng konti kahapon dahil mula sa 11 BDT eh, tatlo nalang kaming natuloy na manood ng Ako Legal Wife. Actually sila nga ang gustong manood non. Tapos biglang hindi sila sasama. So, tatlo na lang kami at naghatak na kami ng kung sinu-sino. At ang kung sinu-sinong iyon ay si Mike at Em. Ayaw nilang pumayag kasi puro babae daw nung sinabing sasama si Gaux biglang pumayag eh hindi pala sasama kaya hindi na naman. 'Eto namang si Em, nakalimutan ko na bakit ayaw niya. Ayun, sa huli sumama si Mike. Medyo inisip ko kung tama bang isama siya kasi kasama namin c Maton pero nung andun kami, owkei naman pala sila eh. May kanya-kanya nang buhay kaya walang ilangang nangyari. Masasabi kong maganda ang movie in a way that nafulfill nia kung anong dapat niang gawin, which is magpatawa. Oo, natawa naman ako kaya lang may mga parts na inaantok ako.Nasa gitna ako ni Maton at Mike. Hindi ako puwedeng sumandal kay Mike at si Maton naman eh enjoy kaya hindi rin ako nakasandal sa kaniya. Kaya upuan nalang ang sinandalan ko. Natuwa naman ako dahil nagawa ko na ang standard ng Love Shine sa Dance Revo. Kahapon 'toh, Friday. Pag-uwi ko eh pagod na ko kaya nakatulog agad. Kaya lang biglang nung mag-12 na biglang nagicng ako sa text. Nasa ilalim kac ng ulo ko. Ngayon pala, wrong send lang. Haaay. So, 12 un. 2 am na ata eh hindi pa bumabalik ang tulog ko eh kailangang gumising ng 6 para magprepare sa pictorial namin. Oo, seryoso ako, may pictorial kami para sa project at kailangang magdala ng damit.
Ayun, nag-alarm ng 6, hindi ako bumangon. 6:30, hindi parin. 7, bumangon na pero inunahan ako ng kapatid kong maligo kac aalis din pala sia, eh malay ko ba kaya un, late ako, pero isa ako sa unang dumating hehe, at 2 hours un bago pa kami nakumpleto. Ayun, nakapagpictorial naman kami ng maayos at natuwa ako dahil nagawa na ung nakahigang pabilog, hehe. Ayun, speaking of pictures. Naalala ko na naman ung picture ni Em nung 1st year. Hehe, natuwa kac ako dun sa picture, ang guwapo nung nasa pic. Kung hindi pa nila sinabi na si Em nga yun eh hindi ko talaga maiicp at iisa-isahin ko pa lahat ng boys sa buong batch para lang madetermine kung cno un. Hindi talaga niya kahawig ngayon. Pero as in ang cute nung picture. Ehem. Ung picture lang. hehe. Dahil dun, kung ano ano pa pinagsasabi ni Chad. Hehe, pero hindi ko bibiguin c Chad. Dahil hindi ak maasar sa kania. Isang buong taong pang-aasar at hindi pa ko naasar. Record un. Muntikan na nung one time na sinabi niyang nagseselos ako kay Margaux nung nanood sila ni Mike. Yun yung konti nalang mababatukan ko na sila ni Mikhail. Anyway, balik sa araw na 'toh. Ayun, masaia nga. Hehe. Hindi mo na kailangang malaman kung bakit masaya basta masaya ako. Yung mga taong kasama ko kanina na lang ang nakakaalam kung bakit. hehe. Eion, sabi ko nga lately eh lague na kong masaia kac except nung Jan. 2 ata un eh since pagbalik ko dito sa Manila hindi na ko naasar. Natutuwa na lang ako palagi. Hehe. Bakit? basta un na un.
Breaking News nga pala, Best Picture ang Blue Moon. Hehe. Oh, edi proud to be Ms. Blue Moon ako ngayon. Inaasar kac nila ko lague eh. Pero natuwa naman ako. Taps si Jose ung best Supporting Actor. Nagulat ako pero natuwa rin kac kaht ndi ko pa napapanood ung Enteng eh nafifeel ko na magaling naman si Jose dun. Haay. Weekend na naman. Marami na namang gagawin pero owkei lang. Haay. Ayos naman ung stainless longganisa na latest book ni Bob Ong pero hindi siya fave ko sa lima. Mas natawa ako sa Alamat ng Gubat pero mas malaman at nakakarelate parin ako sa ABNKKBSNPLAko??!! Nga pala, at last, makakapagsimula na kami sa movie namin sa Arts. Dati kac medyo naguguluhan pa kami sa gagawin at kulang kami sa actors. Ang boys lang kasi samin eh si Leo, CM, Ph, at Erol. Sa kanilang apat, si Leo lang ang mukhang playboy na image to become a leading man. At ni isa sa kanilang tatlo ay for me, hindi puwedeng pang second leading man sa script. Dahil mukha silang mababait. Hehe. Eion, para mas madali, napagicpan namng makipag merge nalang ng group. Apat ang groups. At dahil ung dalawang group eh meron nang nacmulan eh isang group nalang ang wala pa at un ang grupo nina Kim. Ayun edi nagdiskusyon kami nung Filipino time kahapon dahil wala si Mam Vidal at home room time. Natuwa naman ako sa mga ideas namin. Eion, so sa bandang huli ang naging role ko eh leading lady. Eiwan ko ba bakit ako. Eh un owkei lang naman sakin. Leading man ko naman eh c Em. Dapat lang eh ayusin nia. Taps ang mga characteristics namn eh ung mga kabaligtaran. Gusto ko na ngang makitang tibo si Vanir at Rakista si Kim eh. Gusto ko na ring makita si Janica as rich girl na suplada. Rinetain na namin ang real names kac baka magkalituhan sa dami namin. Hindi ko muna ikukwento story kac medyo magulo pa. Pag natapos na kaming magshooting cge, ang blog ang unang makakaalam ng whole story or kapag may parang script na kami. Kasi, napagisipan naming wlang mismong script para natural ang flow ng words. Ayun, so hindi na naman ako uuwi ng dalawang weekends.
Owkei, wala na kong masabi. Basta, masaya ako. Un na un. At dahil nagtatype na ko in Tagalog eh txt na ung words ko. Sorry, intindihin nio na lang. Ganian tlga ko. Wla na kaung maggwa. So, simula ngaun. This is the real me. No more cover ups with English words. Ako na tlga toh. Si Klyonne Whannica Mari Vicentina Dela Cruz. Hay, naalala ko na naman ung nagpapicture kami kahapon. Walang hiya si Maton. Buti nalang at hindi napunta samin ung part na un sa sign-up sheet ng picture. Tama ba namang ilagay na pangalan ko ang Nica D. Sison?? Wala talaga siyang magawang matino sa mundo. At nalito pa ang bruha kung D nga ba ang magiging middle initial ko. Cie, hanggang dito nalang muna. Congrats sa Blue Moon. Congrats kay Jose. Congrats din sa kung cno man ang iba pang nanalo.
Kadalasan, pabagu-bago talaga ang buhay. Kailangan nating mag-adapt sa lahat ng nangyayaring pagbabago. Dun ako pinakanahihirapan. Ang mag-settle sa isang bagong set-up sa buhay. Matagal bago ko magawa un at kadalasan topak ako pag ganun ang mga nangyayari. Siguraduhin mo nalang na bago pa magbago ang lahat sa paligid mo eh, napahalagahan mo at minahal ang mga taong nagpapahalaga at nagmamahal sayo.
you know you love me
xoxo
7:30:00 PM
Y 1.03.2006
Blue Moon
Today was a busy day. BDT went out. We played, we went online, we shopped and we watched our very first movie together. It's none other than, Blue Moon. We put it to a vote but actually I was the only one who really, really wanted to watch it. I don't know why but I'm glad my expectations were met. I actually enjoyed it though I might be the only one who really enjoyed it enough to say it was worth the 105 bucks. Anyway, they keep on calling me Ms. Blue Moon and the reason is that I could relate to the story. I don't know. My situation isn't really like that but there's something that caught my eye. It's a complicated story because both girls have the same name, Corazon. We were also shocked because the name of the leading man is Manuel Pineda, close to Manuel Piñera. Anyway, the trio on my left kept on laughing, making the drama a comedy. Come to think of it, I also laughed because of the sounds. Well, in respect of the latest movie that I watched. Here's Blue Moon by Frank Sinatra.
Blue Moon by Frank Sinatra
Blue Moon
You saw me standing alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
Blue Moon
You know just what I was there for
You heard me saying a prayer for
Someone I really could care for
And then there suddenly appeared before me
The only one my arms will hold
I heard somebody whisper please adore me
And when I looked to the Moon it turned to gold
Blue Moon
Now I'm no longer alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
And then there suddenly appeared before me
The only one my arms will ever hold
I heard somebody whisper please adore me
And when I looked the Moon had turned to gold
Blue moon
Now I'm no longer alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
Blue moon
Now I'm no longer alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
you know you love me
xoxo
7:57:00 PM
Y 1.02.2006
Heartbeat
| Your Heart Is Red | 
You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart.
Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person!
Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy
Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing
Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense
What you bring to relationships: Honesty |
*Wow...I don't know what to say.*
| The Keys to Your Heart |  You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
* No comment*
| Your Love Element Is Earth |  In love, you have consistency and integrity.For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered.
You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time.
Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life.You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk.
You connect best with: Fire
Avoid: Wood
You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation |
What Element Is Your Love?
*Hmm...let's see, I really have no comment whatsoever.*
you know you love me
xoxo
7:09:00 PM
Y
Copycat...again!
01. I miss somebody right now. (lague naman eh, c marj xempre)<br>
02. I watch more tv than I used to.
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping.<br>
05. I own lots of books. (yup, may library nga ako sa pamp. umabot na ata ng 1000 buks ko eh, ndi ko pa nabibilang lately)
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games. (kung gba lang or something)<br>
08. I've tried marijuana.
09. I've watched porn movies. (accidentally lang sa bus nung papunta sa subic)<br>
10. I have been in a threesome.(worst place to be)<br>
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.<br>
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like and respect Kris Aquino.
15. I curse frequently.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby. (reading, of course)<br>
18. I've been told I have a nice butt.<br>
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I'm really, really smart. I'm not a genius, just smart.
21. I've never broken someone else's bones.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
23. I love rain.
24. I'm paranoid at most times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free.
26. I need money right now.
27. I love sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast. Really, really fast.
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.
30. I have semi-long hair.
31. I have lost a lot of money in gambling.
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of the Phils.
34. I shave my legs.
35. I have a twin.
36. I couldn't survive without a mobile phone.
38. I like the way that I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
40. I know how to do cornrows.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have mood swings. siempre ako pa
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
45. I have cheated on a significant other.
46. I have a hidden talent.
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I've had.
48. I think that I'm popular.
49. I am currently single.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in PJ pants.
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my blog.
58. I dont hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer.
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
68. I've rejected someone before. wag nang itanng kng cno...
69. I've graduated college.
70. I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
71. I want to have children in the future.
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I've had the cops called on me before.
74. I bite my nails.
75. I am a member of the PBB fan club.
76. I'm not allergic to anything.
77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
82. I have at least 25 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol before.
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on my blog.
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy country music.
89. What happened to 89..? Bummer.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
92. I'm obsessive, retentive, and often a perfectionist. pag nasa mood
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the words to the Sesame Street opening song.
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend's ex.
99. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. I've had a crush on somebody I've never met. Daniel Radcliffe
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating with something right now.
106. I own and use a library card. > own lang pero not use
107. I fall in 'lust' more than in 'love.'
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever. >no, hp ako eh
110. I'm obsessed with the TV show "Lost."
111. I think Beyblades is the coolest show in coolsville.
112. There are more things I could be better at, if only I tried harder.
113. Sometimes I don't like food.
114. I worry sometimes that I'm not being the best friend I could be to the people I care about.
115. I desperately want people to respect me, but it rarely happens.
116. I have never been able to say anything positive about myself and truly believe it.
117. I am bisexual.
118. I think Australian accents are very attractive. naaliw nga ako sa accent sa sleepover club eh, akala ko british, aussie pala,
119. I'm very neurotic and suffer from acute paranoia.
120. I speak another language besides English.
121. I joke about eating, shaking, and kicking babies.
122. I'm most likely to spend my money on music. And books.
123. I've never built a snowman.
124. I celebrate my pets birthdays.
you know you love me
xoxo
10:46:00 AM
Y 1.01.2006
Boom!
It's the first day of the year 2006. January 1, it's the birthday of the hottest anime character, Kaede Rukawa. It's also the birthday of the second hottest anime character, Tamahome. Hehe. You might find me delusional for celebrating fictitious characters' birthdays but hey, it's the start of they year so let me be delusional. Anyhow, it's January 1 what else is there to say? Well, we'll be going back to Manila tomorrow. Classes will resume on Wednesday and we'll be back to a world filled with nothing but gruesome studying. What a joy, not. Anyhow, this has been a great Christmas Vacation. I actually look forward to the start of school but I don't look forward to the amount of work awaiting all the studs. Since I don't really have a certain topic to discuss. I didn't make any new years resolution 'cause I'm sure I won't be able to follow them. I'll just tell you how the Vicentina Clan celebrates New Year.
Our New Year's Celebration has been the same for the past 15 years. Yes, the only difference is that the family get's bigger and bigger. I am closer to the Vicentina Family more than the Dela Cruz family because they live in Manila and we in Pampanga but over the years the Dela Cruz clan has spread their wings and went to different countries. Let me introduce you to my family (paternal side)
Grandfather: Antonio Dela Cruz - lives in the US (he's really nice) Grandmother: Lilia A. Dela Cruz - deceased (1995) I barely knew her Uncles: Rey Dela Cruz - eldest (lives in the US with his family) Jun Dela Cruz - not his full name I think it's Jose Antonio but anyway he also lives in the US, he's a policeman and still single Patricio Dela Cruz - tito pat in short, he lives in the UAE with his family Marvin Dela Cruz - the one I envy most, he lives with his family in London...waah..take me with you Aunts: Ailyn Dela Cruz Schutt - lives in the US, I can't remember the last time I saw her. I think it was 10 years ago. Mae Dela Cruz ? - I don't know her husbands last name, she's still here in the Philippines Michelle Dela Cruz - youngest aunt, still here too and she was 13 when I was born. Cousins: Raymond Dela Cruz - I think he's 13 years old, eldest cousin, only saw him once, also an HP adik Lila Alexandria Schutt - I don't know how old she is but I like her name Lea Antoinette Dela Cruz - I envy her, she'll grow up in London Ashley Sophia ? - youngest cuz Kylie ? - Ashley's elder sister, we're not really close Patrick Dela Cruz - closest cousin, he's 6 I think AJ Dela Cruz - I forgot what AJ stands for but he's Patrick's younger bro
So, that's the Dela Cruz Family. We're not really close. I see them once in a blue moon.
Now, it' time for the Vicentina Clan
Grandmother: Bonay Doda Vda. de Vicentina - we call her Apo, I really love her, we grew up with her Grandfather: Manuel A. Vicentina - died when he was just 33 years old and my youngest aunt was 3 months old Uncle: Cornelio M. Vicentina - we call him Tito Bong though we don't know where he got that name Aunts: Mary Anne M. Vicentina - Nang Anne, or Ninang Anne, I don't know why everyone calls her Ninang but we just got used to it Cristy M. Vicentina - Ta Cristy, our official guardian, we live with her Leah Ronah V. Ocampo - Ta Ley, the official saleswoman of the family Ma. Fe V. Dizon - Ta Fe, youngest, strictest, largest Cousins: Criselle Joie H. Vicentina - known as Joie2 age: 12 Manuel Christian H. Vicentina - known as Chan2 or Chan taba age: 9 Sean Louie V. Ocampo - know as Sean or Louie or Tembong age: 6 Shella Laine V. Ocampo - known as Shella age: 4 Manuel Lorenz M. Vicentina - know as timo or tim age: 6 (ehem, don't ask me why he has the name Manuel but has the nickname tim, it's hard to explain, it was tita fe who gave him that nickname) extra Aunts and Uncles: Seraffin Ocampo - tita ley's husband, we knew him since we were 3 or 4 years old Dixie H. Vicentina - tita dix, tito bong's wife Renz Dizon - I really don't know tito Renz's real name since he just joined our family recently
Now, I'm really close with my family (maternal side) because we live close to each other. We used to live under one roof. Since both my mom and dad are working, they have been taking care of us since I was only ababy. I was closest to Tita Ley since she was the one who really took care of me when I was young.
New Year's Eve was celebrated with a bang! (or singing and dancing more likely) Since everyone is younger than me I was just watching while all of my cuz's except joie2 and I were dancing to Average Joe. The adults were watching. Everyone was singing, dancing and simply having fun. Some were eating. We were playing games and it was just pure fun until I got tired and lied down. I started texting people happy new year by 11:45 and I finished at exactly 12. Everyone was wearing gas masks, especially moi because the smoke might trigger my asthma. Anyhow, of course there were fire crackers and stuff but I really did not participate. I was just jumping at the strike of 12 hoping it would work and I'll grow even just a few inches taller. It was just a simple celebration but we've got tons of food including a lechon. Anhow, it was simple yet enjoyable. I was happy. I hope this new year will bring new hopes and new challenges that I will overcome.
Time really flies. In three months time, junior year will be over. You know what? I feel like it's only June and I'm just starting 3rd year because everything that happened these past few months have all been a blur. Anyway, I'm going to miss Mendel so much but everything has a beginning and an end. Let's all rejoice that we're all safe and we've still got 10 fingers. Once again, I greet all of you a Happy New Year!
you know you love me
xoxo
1:55:00 PM
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