Y 9.29.2005
Losing My Touch...??
Am I losing my touch? I have been the president of our class for almost 5 months now. I was able to go through the excruciating job as leader of the Sabayang Pagbigkas. Of course it wasn't all rainbows and butterflies. Some people even started hating me, I think. Anyway, we were practicing for the Field Demonstration. We were supposed to practice something marvelous for the formations. The girls wanted to practice, the boys didn't so I didn't insist on practicing but the girls did. They keep on telling me to tell the boys that we needed to practice. When I told them that the boys didn't want to practice they keep on urging me to order them to practice. I said I didn't want to. Then they talked behind my back and said that I was elected president so that people will follow me. Eventually, they told me. So I followed the class and urged the boys to practice, they followed but everything was chaos. I keep on telling them to shut up and I'll be the only one to talk or else we will stop practicing. Nobody listened and they still kept on talking. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I got mad. Well, not really mad but I said we'll stop the practice and sort of walked out. Haha. Drama. I did not mean to do that. I just got fed up. Afterwards they approached me. Etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. We started practicing. After that we were supposed to practice the other formations but I can't seem to muster the strength to talk to the class loudly and lead them. I was just so tired. I had no more ATP to use. I asked the others to lead. I forgot all about what happened awhile ago until I just came to wonder. Am I losing my touch? I was an unfair, dictator type of president two years ago. A tyrant who makes people follow through my sharp tongue, booming voice and violence. Haha. Exag. Anyway, I was really strict and I was kind of mean. If I compared myself then and now, I can really say that I'm so kind and consdirate now. Hahaha. I guess things really did change last year. Everything everyone said about me being more calm, being nicer, becoming less strict and less authoritarian was all true. What caused the sudden change of attitude? Let's just say, love can really move mountains. I didn't know if the change was for the better or for worse. Well, maybe I'm just tired. Tomorrow I will be recharged. It'll be the old me again. Harry Potter is only 47 days away. The long wait will be worth it. I can already feel the emotions rising. I'm sure I'll get emotional with this latest film. I just saw the latest pics and I can really tell that it is the best movie so far. It is the most expensive movie ever to be made. Things seem brighter. Things will definitely be better. p.s. Abychu, don't look at the pic...it's a spoiler
you know you love me
xoxo
9:27:00 PM
Y 9.26.2005
Fantastic little things Makes the World a Better Place
Hey. I have just arrived home from the grueling practice for the field demonstration. At long last, we have something decent to dance. I so enjoyed the 3 hours of practice except for the fact that I became so parched I was able to drink 3 cups of iced tea. I love the steps especially the ones that belong to Ptolemy but I also like some of our steps. Anyway, never mind about that. Just Kidding!!! I haven't felt this refreshed since Junior year started. There's this feeling of happiness that only dancing can give me. While I was executing the steps and after dancing, every breath that I take is like a breath of life. A breath of Nirvana. Dancing, a fantastic little thing that makes me happy. Simple steps and moves make my day a better one. The joyous music sweeps away the loneliness in my heart. For the first time in many days I felt calm and I felt so at home. Dancing is one of the special things in my life I can't live without. Anyway, the latest issue of W.I.T.C.H. has just come out. I forgot the title but anyway the cover is Matt and Will, totally in love with each other. Though love is scarce nowadays I still find them oh, so romantic. I just hate the fact that Caleb and Elyon are the ones who are in love with each other. Caleb and Cornelia will only be friends. JUST FRIENDS. Well, at least they're friends after they broke up unlike some people I know. Anyway, I'm quite sure it would be a Cornelia/Peter pairing. I hate that pairing. Anyway, this simple mag is also one of the fantastic little things that makes me happy. I enjoy reading it. I anticipate it's monthly release. I always pass through Papyvore to check if the latest issue is already out. A magazine, simple yet powerful. Harry Potter. Although I can't say it's a fantastic little thing. I can definitely say its a fantastic thing right? It's something big. It's something that inspires millions of people around the globe. Some people are certified Harry Potter addicts, just like me. I can't imagine how my life will be if I wasn't given the chance to meet Harry in the pages where he lies peacefully and undisturbed.Not. Once you've already found something special, you can't live without it. Just like HP. It's something special that I discovered and I don't think I'll be able to live without it. I just can't imagine when the last book is out. How will I feel? What will I do when the last movie has been released? I would still be shipping Dr/Hr. Fanfictions are solace of people who have such exentric tastes in pairing that they tend to choose highly improbable ones like Dr/Hr. I do admit that there's more chance of man discovering the secrets of time rather than Draco ending up with Hermione and vice versa. J.K. Rowling made it clear. Now that we've touched the topic about fanfictions, I am currently reading one made by a Filipino author in Filipino. It's title is "May Mantikilya sa Siko Mo Harry!" It's a Harry/Ginny fic, the pairing that I despise the most but besides that fact, it's a trully enjoyable fic. I just can't stop laughing. Once again, a simple thing made me happy. I want to thank Marjorie for posting it in her blog. I read it and it's totally amusing. Latest pictures of the upcoming HP movie always paints a smile on my face. Trailers make me go ballistic. Simple things make me happy. Simple things can place a smile on my face. Simple things make my heart sing with joy. Simple yet fantastic things make me forget the pain and the suffering that I'm actually feeling. I do have a fear of failure and rejection, in case you don't know. I haven't faced these fears yet. Everytime I sense failure and rejection, I turn to this fantastic li'l things that make me happy. I think of Harry Potter, dancing, Daniel Radcliffe, etc. etc. and so forth. Everyone have silly lil things that make them happy. As they say "Lahat ng tao may kababawan!" I already discovered mine. My "kababawan" is that I adore moving pictures or drawings. I do know they're just as what Mikhail keeps on insisting "cartoon characters." I know they're not real and they would never come to life but I also know that I find happiness everytime I watch them have a go at each other. They make me laugh out loud like there's no more tomorrow. Only Rukawa can do that. So here's another technique for the tormented souls out there. Don't keep your sadness and suffering inside, like some people I know. Just hold them for awhile 'till such a time comes when you're ready to let them go. For the mean time, busy yourself with silly things, silly things that make you happy. These rants really have nothing to do with what I really have in mind right now. I'm actually panicking since I haven't passed my project in T.L.E. yet and there's like 98.9% chance that we won't be able to pass our research paper on friday. I guess the silly game with your hands is actually true. Maybe I really am a heart over mind person or maybe that's who I really am. Maybe I've just been hiding behind the tough exterior of being all mind and no heart to protect myself from getting hurt when actually I'm already crumbling inside. So, on a happier note I don't dread Camelot anymore. That day will come and go. Although it's supposed to be a special one I won't bother thinking all about it. I'll just believe in Que cera cera. Maybe things will definitely change. I hope so. I haven't found a new quote or anything to place here so I'll just use something from the latest Potter Movie. "Everything will change now, isn't it?" p.s. - hope so...
you know you love me
xoxo
7:26:00 PM
Y 9.23.2005
The Week That is....
I haven't posted anything for a week. It might be because nothing happened, or the special things that happended cannot be posted here or I just don't want to post anything. I feel like posting something now. It's just a jampacked week. I don't know where to start. I'll start with my agenda for the following weeks. We'll be going out next week, for our research. Finally!!!! Foundation Day will be on Oct. 7. The play for SS is on Oct. 15. The field trip is on Oct. 22. The MidYear is during the week before 22. The Camelot play is on Oct. 23. Sem Break is from Oct. 24 to Nov. 1. There will be no choric interpretation. So these are the upcoming activities for October. This past week has been a blur. Last Monday something special happened. I think. Anyway, Tuesday was also special because we stayed up 'till 8 pm to play Dance Maniax. After that, all of us got sick. Aby was even absent for two days. Our field demonstration is just around the corner. I get irritated everytime I see the other juniors dancing Bop It! because we, the other 5 sections under Mam Oka, don't have a decent dance yet. Dancing is one thing in life I cannot live without. I take it seriously but I also enjoy it so it's just understandable that I freak out if we don't have nice steps and nice music but thank God that it's turning out to be something good. Anyway, what else? Oh yeah, another phenomena yesterday. Nikko was so shocked its as if they saw a miracle. Hahaha. Another thing, I received a letter from the people who manage the Singaporean Scholarship and I didn't pass. It didn't come as a shock and I wasn't affected. I don't know but I guess, the truth is, I don't really want to go there for four years and then come back here to get a college course. It's like I wasted 3 years. I was so busy today. I had five things to do during home room time but I participated in the Reading Proficiency Contest instead of attending the meeting for the KOS, attending the meeting of the Junior Assembly, discussing Civic Pride as instructed by the guidance counselor, and finishing my Filipino output which was due before 12. I also had so many activities after class. I had to go and supervise the Sci Games, lead the class for the practice of our field demo and go out with my friends to play Dance Maniax. I did all the after school activities and managed to invite Rachelle to join. I got another person hooked with Dance Maniax. Speaking of Dance Maniax, I have set a record for myself. I had 781 Combo. I perfected the Afronova Mild which I thought was an impossible thing to do. I even survived the Happy-Hopper Wild and everything was in 1.5 speed. Like we said in English, there is no impossible dream. I was able to buy a present for my mom and buy the latest issue of W.I.T.C.H. I'm actually waiting for Nikko to share the news. Looking back on this week, I can say that it was a good week considering certain things. Tomorrow, I will be going home to Pampanga. I will be watching the gig of Queshe, whoever they are. Niño and Julius formed a certain club. They made me president. It' s so stupid to have me as president or even as a member of that club. They even made Luis the VP. Huh. As if. The war is over but it seems to be re-starting. I have become a reporter. Any events concerning them is reported to her. Anyway, Social Studies is now Araling Panlipunan. Those people at the Department of Education are stupid. They passed the order to conduct SS classes in English. hahaha. Just imagine Miss Lazaro speaking in Tagalog. Our closing greeting is now "Paalam at Salamat po, Binibining Lazaro!" hahaha. It's so difficult to discuss History using Filipino as the medium because terms are in English. The following weeks would definitely be busy. I like it when things get busy around here because I forget all other things. My body and my mind are too preoccupied so I don't have time to listen to my heart or to whatever my heart is shouting. I don't want to care but I can't seem to stop caring. I do idolize this person when it comes to hiding feelings. He's the master. Anyway, that was another week, that is. I hope the next would be a better one. Oh yeah, I just remembered something. Cornelia and Caleb finally saw each other again. Caleb is already in love with another person but whatever happens they agreed that they will still be friends. Cornelia agreed to this even though it was already obvious that it was Elyon who Caleb now loves. It's a good thing for them. It's a good thing they are still friends. Caleb is my favorite W.I.T.C.H. guy. Cornelia was so lucky that even for a short period of time, she and Caleb shared a love that was perfect. Sometimes we learn from these magazines even if they are only drawings. Matt and Will's love for each other saved them from the evil hands of Cedric. I found a really good quote yesterday. It says it all. Anyway, 53 days before Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. GoF is really just around the corner. I've seen trailers and pictures. I'm sure it'll be the best movie, so far. *Miracles happen once in a while when you believe."
you know you love me
xoxo
7:28:00 PM
Y 9.18.2005
Happy Birthday Nikko, It really was and Adventure!!!
Greetings! I cannot contain my excitement. I have to place every little detail of yesterday's events in this blog or else I'll blow up. Seriously. I woke up at 8 I think. Aby and I were suppose to meet at the Libertad Station at 11 but she moved it to 11:45, so there. We went to Robinson's Place Manila first and ate at Ice Monster before we knew it, it was already 1 pm, our meeting time. We went back to school and then we waited. Daryll was the first one to arrive and then I called Nikko, he and the others were at Paco Park since the Berze pipz have a practice. We went there. There was a bit of chaos about who's going to come and where we will be going. Baby M and Jar will only be able to come if we go to Star City while 7 of us wanted to go to Enchanted Kingdom. Our conscience was bothering us as we walked our way to the UN station of the LRT where we will be meeting Iric. Oh yeah, I was so shocked but also very happy that "ganda" will be able to come with us. Yipee! When we were finally complete we went to Buendia to the bbl trans station where we rode a bus to Sta. Rosa. The bus ride? It was fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, and a million more fun. I think it was about an hour and a half or more but it felt like 10 minutes. We felt like we owned the back part of the bus. We talked about our teachers, school, memories from the past, Daryll made jokes and a lot more. Before we knew it we were in Sta Rosa. We got off the bus at Walter Mart (hehe, not WalMart). We rode a tricycle and viola we were in front of the most magical place in the Philippines, Enchanted Kingdom! Naah, it wasn't the most magical place but that's what the brochure says. We were so excited. We rode the roller coaster first, it was corny. Then we were suppose to ride the Anchors Away but then it was still under Maintenance Check so we rode the Space Shuttle. Out of the 8, only 3 have ridden the space shuttle before. It was also my first time. I wasn't nervous. I don't know. I used to be really scared of that ride but being with my friends made me brave. I wanted to try it out. Iric was a kill joy. He did not ride it with us. Boohoo! Nikko had an imaginary friend for a partner. Hahaha. Anyway it was an unforgettable experience. Nothing will rival the feeling of riding the space shuttle. After that we rode the Flying Fiesta where we just got dizzier after riding the space shuttle and then the Anchors Away where we enjoyed shouting stuff to each other like Nerds Rule! etc. I think after that we rode the Rio Grande Rapids. I think it was the most enjoyable ride because of many reasons. First, we were all together in that ride. We were laughing as to who will get hit by the water and we were laughing at Daryll, Aby and Abychu because they were the wettest bunch on our first ride. Since Iric did not even get wet we went for another ride. This time he took the place of Daryll. So he got wet. Abychu took a shower. Hahaha. The water jumped and landed on her head. After that we rode the Jungle log jam where our faces were wet with water. Our pictures looked funny. After that we dressed up, ate and then rode the Rialto, the Wheel of Fate, where the swan thingy started. The other group made Aby cry. Then our last ride was the 4D theatre. It was really something. I would've enjoyed it much if the show was not horror. Waa. I can't explain the experience but I can say that you can really feel that you were the one who's in the movie. There's water and air involved. You'll be shocked that there's air coming from behind your seat. It was an additional payment of 40 pesos but it was worth it although I missed half of it since my eyes were closed. Iric was saying that I would have my eyes closed and he was right. I really can't stand horror. Anyway when we got out it was time for the Fire works. All I can say is WOW! I felt like I was a kid again. A kid who enjoys simple but magnificent things like fireworks. All of us felt like that. This was the end of the adventure. NOT! It's actually nothing compared to what came next. Something we did not expect. Going to Sta. Rosa was fairly easy since someone already told us how but our mistake was we did not ask them how to get home. We rode a tricycle to Balibago Complex where they charged us 60 pesos. whoa. Then it was the time to part. 5 - 3. Daryll, Carla and Maricar were going to Cavite while the 5 of us were going back to Manila. We rode a different van. All of them were talking and talking about stuff. I was leaning on Abychu's shoulders and had my eyes closed. I think they already covered all topics and then we saw SM Mega Mall. We were like wait. This is already Ortigas. We were supposed to go down in Buendia. The people who were with us at the back of the van were helpful enought to tell us that we were lost and how to get back to Buendia. But still, we were lost. We did not know how to go back. We were in the middle of nowhere. We were helpless. Well, not really. We knew where we were. We crossed the street and rode a bus that has a sign of Leveriza. The bus ride was long and we were scared that it would bring us to another unknown place. I was all eyes. I did not even dare blink. Abychu and Iric were almost drifting to sleep when. Bam! The people were having a commotion. They thought the bus hit a person but luckily it didn't. A white van had an accident. It was beside our bus. Of course, this added more panic. Our parents were already calling us. We were already sure that when we arrived home we will be scolded. Aby then saw a sign saying Edsa-Pasay. So, she asked me if we were going down already. I merely said that the bus conductor said it will pass through Leveriza so we have to stay in the bus until we reach Leveriza. Another kind man in front of their seat said that we were indeed going to pass through Leveriza. We finally reached Gil Puyat Ave. They though I knew the way, sorry guys but I'm foreign to that part of Gil Puyat but when we passed Manila Pen I knew we were on the right track because I've passed that way before. I told them if we were in Gil Puyat we just have to go straight ahead and we'll reach Taft and viola, Taft Avenue it is. I felt like crying. Seeing the GIl Puyat station of LRT, I said I'm finally in a place where I know the way. So we helped Iric, Abychu and NIkko ride a jeep and then Aby and I went to the loading zone. We rode a jeepney, Evangelista-Libertad, the jeepney I ride everyday when going home. We reached our house and I gave out a sigh of relief. Whoo...I'm finally home. Aby stayed for awhile to call his dad and she went off. I immediately fell to sleep thinking of all the adventures we've had the previous day since it was already midnight. Well, all I can say is when you're with friends you will feel confident and brave even in the scariest situations. You won't feel helpless. It was 2 years ago, in freshman year where we met each other. Until now we are all good friends. All of us are ready to help each other out. Anyway, Nikko...I'm sure this is a birthday you will never forget. Happy Birthday. To the others, I was so happy yesterday that I was with all of you. Tp the swan: You won't be able to bring bad luck to us anymore. And now as I write this post I'm proud to say that I survived the Space Shuttle. I survived another great adventure, the greatest so far and I survived it with my friends. Woohoo! Love you , guyz! P.S. I loved the fireworks!!!
you know you love me
xoxo
9:12:00 AM
Y 9.13.2005
War is over.
The waging war between R and I is officially over. We have lost our touch. I stop teasing her already. I can't tease her when I can see that she's so happy and they look so good together. She still teases me sometimes. She keeps on insisting that my favorite color is black. If you don't get it, translate it in tagalog. Anyway, the Mendel people have also stopped. Thank God. I already told my friends not to mention the name in front of me and not to mention my name in front of him. It gets tiring after some time.
The day started fine. Nothing special about today actually. I just want to post to show Nikko and Abychu the pix of Marj's school. Anyway, I think I'll be able to come with them to EK but a new problem arises. The Berze pipz will have a practice or something concerning their English class. So it might not be on Saturday. They decided that it will be on Friday but then some people will not be able to come. Well, the decision is not in my hands anymore. Sorry if I was a control frieak before. Sorry, Nikko. Anyway, it's advice time in English.
P.S. The picture attached is Marjorie's new school in Canada.
you know you love me
xoxo
7:18:00 PM
Y 9.12.2005
Soaking. Drowning. Sorry
I just realized that this blog is my outlet. I can say anything here and I can pour my emotions and my darkest feelings. The whole weekend I have been picturing myself writing here with my latest post entitled "There's still no place like Home" as a tribute to my going home to Pampanga. After a month and a half I finally went home. I was supposed to write about how I felt really special since they cooked my fave foods and how they showed that they really missed me. Things were going smoothly, same as ever until late Sunday afternoon. My deepest, darkest secret is finally out. My family knows. I don't know about my dad but my mom knows. My grandmother, three of my aunts, my uncle, my brother, my sisters and even my cousins know. I'm doomed. My mother was so mad. I feel so guilty. I don't know what to do. I'm grounded for life. A prisoner in my own world. I don't want to go back home. I just want to escape. My aunt gave this speech and this morning's car ride was definitely the longest. I feel like I've disappointed everybody. I feel like I'm such a bad person. I hate myself right now. I hate myself for being stupid and not deleting my sent messages. I hate myself for lying. I hate myself for getting caught. I hate myself. I don't think anybody understands my situation. Everything just doesn't feel right. Getting back to today, the classes were the same. I miss Vanir. I haven't been with her for three straight days. Some classes were the same as ever but I can't seem to see things the way I see them before, even if it was just two days ago. I managed to stay intact for the whole day. We even prepared a birthday celebration for our adviser with cakes and everything. Suddenly, during P.E. time I found out that he thinks of me badly at the moment. Why? What did I do? That's when I realized that I've been acting so stupid these past few weeks. I was just like Regina from Mean Girls. Watch the movie if you don't know who she is. I realized my mistake. I had a short conversation with my friends before going home. That was when I can't take it anymore, I cried. I don't know. The timing is just wrong. My friends and I were supposed to go to EK on Saturday. Now, I don't even know if I'm allowed to go. When I went out of school it was raining. The people who I go home with were nowhere to be seen. Good thing Iric shared his umbrella for awhile. Reaching the LRT station I saw them. I was glad that I'll go home with them since I don't want to think about things. That was when I got the courage. I took out my CP and texted my mom. I said sorry. It's something that's so hard to do. Finally, I arrived at my stop. Good thing I was able to ride a jeepney right away but when I got off it was already raining hard and I had no umbrella. I got soaked. I took a bath immediately and opened my mail. I started crying again. I received an e-mail from Marj. I just can't help it. She told me all about her first week. I feel so excited for her. I can't wait to tell her about all the things that happened here. I'm drowning in the pool of my emotions. I'm soaking with guilt. I'm sorry for all the things that I have done. I want to say sorry to my mom and my family for lying to them. I want to say sorry to my friends if ever there are times that I'm so bossy. Sorry Nikko for taking control of your birthday. Sorry Abychu if there are times that I took you for granted. Sorry Marj if there are times that I seem to forget where you are thinking that you are just here with us. Sorry to you, sorry for whatever I did that made you think of me badly. Sorry to everyone. Just sorry. To end my post I want to share this poem I got from Aia titled Pretend. Pretend How brave I was to pretend that I wasn't hurt when we fell apart? For a long long time, me was not me, and we became only me Yet no one seemed to have noticed. How many times did I put up a happy front though my heart was really hurting? It amazes me no end when I look at the mirror and talk to myself And yes, I always say I've been the greatest pretender of all time How do I stop pretending it seems your love is not coming back? How do I stop pretending whent it seems you'll never come back. To hold me, to love me, to kiss me again. Well I guess that until you come back and light up my life again, I will just keep on pretending. - end of poem - I won't live my life pretending I'm this or that when I'm not. I will start a new leaf where my family and friends are No.1, where my studies is my number 1 priority and where God is the center of everything I do. I just hope other people learn this lesson too.
you know you love me
xoxo
7:09:00 PM
Y 9.09.2005
DANCE MANIAX ADIK!
Woohoo...30 songs...about 15 of those are wild, yeah! The Mendel pipz are now certified Dance Maniax addicts. We even had a competition. Guess What? I got the Bronze. For those people out there who don't know what Dance Maniax is, it's one of the games at GBox, Quantum, Time Zone etc. It is played using your hands. You follow a set of circles that shows you where to place your hand. You can choose the songs, the speed, and other settings like whether it is wild or mild. I love dancing so it's just natural for me to love this game. Dance Maniax is a great activity especially for your arms. The day started like any other day, for the 4th time this week we commuted to school because the garage of the compound is under construction. I was in the assembly. Wow, for the first time I wasn't late. Our classes were same old, same old. Aia braided my hair. Love you, Aia. The K.O.S. is in charge of the activity this afternoon which is the Digital Play so we were assigned as usherettes for the said event. Music time was something. I was talking to someone when suddenly a legion of seniors approached our boys *meaning Mendel boys.* It was a good thing that they were talking peacefully and no fighting occured. We were the first ones to arrive at SM Cinema 4. Wow, first in line. We are thankful that Ma'am Soriano is absent because our dismissal time became 1:40. We ate while we were waiting for the authorized people to let us in. When people started arriving, it was chaos. Mascians should be disciplined since smart people should know how to act when they are in public right? Well, I'm dissapointed. Some freshies and sophies were acting inappropriately. Well, I can't actually comment about the play though I have a few questions. What is the relation of the play to Science? What is the point of the play? Without the Disney songs the play would have been nothing. I just enjoyed some parts because of the songs. Anyway, immediately after the play, I ran. I ran as fast as the wind to be able to reach Quantum before any other Mascian and I was succesful. We were the first ones to play, 16 tokens. Waaahaha. I'm quite sure that the group of Darren, Carla and Lousanne were already complaining since we were so addicted to it and we started 5:15 and ended at 6: 50. Whoa. It was an enjoyable experience. It was also a means for a few members of III - Mendel to bond. I also found out that one of my close friends, Nikko, was also good in playing Dance Maniax though I can say that he's not that addicted. I found out that one of the persons I just recently talked to is actually a nice person. I felt like crying awhile ago. I couldn't help it. I don't know why I'm so affected. I want it to stop but it doesn't want to stop. "The hurt, it pains so much!" - Mike. I went home totally looking forward to going home. I'm going home to Pampanga tonight after a month and a half. I haven't seen my family since the second week of July. Whatever I felt before and during the play were all gone once I started playing Dance Maniax. Oh how I wish I could turn back time. P.S. Dance Maniax reminded me of Marj, she's better than me in that game. She was the one I was with when I first played it. I miss her. P.S.S. Abychu, Danikko and I will make you one of us. P.S.S.S. Saw the poster of Hp Gof. It was under coming soon. I guess November is just around the corner. I guess that's what they mean by soon. I got totally excited. I love you guys!
you know you love me
xoxo
8:31:00 PM
Y 9.07.2005
Let the War Begin..
We are currently in the peace talk stage. She did not want to agree to a cease fire because she's having fun. We are at war. Tomorrow will be another day. Hahaha. No, I don't have an enemy and we're not fighting. I have a friend in class, she's one of the smartest girls I know. She's also one of the most hardworking. She's not grade conscious but she still keeps her grades up. She's also very nice and very pretty. Although small in stature she can captivate anyone with her wonderful smile. Our tongue-lashing war has begun. It's so fun teasing a person when you know she/he won't get mad and just tease you back. The day started bad, my sister and I fought. I left her and went to school alone. Of course, I did feel guilty after some time but then I was mad. During physics, I was passing notes with her. It all started there until Chemistry and I started teasing her. I was broke today. Yup, that means I don't have money. I was so stupid and I left my money at home. Nothing much today, just the war. I came to meet her again as another person. I was able to see beyond that girl I know. I actually see myself in her when I was in her situation. That's why I can't help but tell her things and give her warnings. Yep. I actually gave her advice and warned her. Ha. As if I'm the expert. It's just that the situation was a bit similar and from my experience things are not looking good. I just want to see her happy maybe because I'm not so I want to see other people happy. I just they could share some of their happiness to me. Hehe. I almost forgot. Our trip home was another adventure. The LRT stations are in Code red meaning there will be no operations in the LRT so we can't go home that way. We waited for a bus and rode a bus, we were standing and well it was our first time to ride a bus that way. Anyway, luckily we were able to reach our humble homes. I just wish tomorrow might bring better things and Let the War Begin... *Moving on is not moving on to another girl/guy. It's taking steps away from the one you used to love but it does not necessarily mean your taking steps towards the direction of another person.* P.S. And yeah, my mom sent me pics of Hong Kong Disney land, at night. Guess she's also excited. We're going there this December...-this explains my pic-
you know you love me
xoxo
7:30:00 PM
Y 9.05.2005
New Saying: If a Day Started Bad, it will eventually get better and better....
I just made a new saying. Actually, it's not new but that's just what happened today. The day started bad and ended great. We were quite early this morning but due to our written report in p.e., they had to wait for me and we arrived the same time we arrive everyday, LATE. I had so many things to bring. I was bringing my P.E. unifor and my badminton racket. I had a feeling we wouldn't be having P.E., I just didn't know this morning how right I was. Late people who were not able to attend the assembly may still go to their first period class but we still have to fall in line. When I went to the back of the line I didn't expect my day to turn nasty in a split second. Actually, what I saw wasn't nasty. I just couldn't help hating myself whenever I see that scene. Everytime I see that, I keep on thinking that it should've been me who's there. I should've been the one who's happy if I wasn't stupid. I dunno. My blood just start boiling. Anyway, Iric then asked me if I wanted to go through Bordner so we don't have to wait for the line to move. I agreed. I had a laugh since I reminded him of the "kiss".blech. given to him by our dear beloved Filipino teacher. hahaha. I saw Abychu and gave her the book. *Told you it was good*. I then went on my way to our Physics class and *tada*, no Ma'am Hedia, absent for the first time. I just started making my "bolero", a project for T.L.E. After an hour, it was our T.L.E. time and Ma'am Sayat was not around. Ha, two subjects with no teacher? Is this day good or what? Then Kamille said that Mrs. Angeles is not around. We started rejoicing but then she arrived and we had a lesson. aawww. I thought the day was getting better even thought it went off with a bad start. Filipino was as always, Filipino. We just had a group work and we read our Filipino Time. * I just noticed that we have a student mag/Time for almost every subject. What comes next? mapeh time? tle time? cs time? ve time? hehehe* Ms. Parcon suddenly arrives in our classroom. I thought she was just going to talk to Mrs. Vidal but she suddenly went infront of our room. We were not aware that she was the bringer of good news. She said "May sasabihin ako pero walang sisigaw." At that instant I knew the classes might be cut or there will be no classes the following day. This time, it was the former. She said there were going to be rallies in front of the Supreme Court and DOJ so she instructed us to go home immediately. Being the little angels, right then and there we planned to go to SM Manila. I wanted to watch a movie with my friends but they were going straight home. So, the Mendel pipz just agreed to go to Time Zone and lose ourselves in playing Dance Mania.adik. The afternoon was definitely not a bore. I guess I'm improving. I used to do the mild but now I can do the wild. The songs Baila! and Locomotion are stuck in my head. haha. I also bought a good book today. I also enjoyed the afternoon with friends. All in all it was a great day. When I got home, I was able to watch Slam Dunk and eat a good dinner. Abychu also liked the latest installment of Mates, Dates. What else could I ask for? And oh, there are no assignments. Actually, there is, trigonometry but never mind. A great day is still a great day. See? The day started with something bad but the day eventually reached its full potential? What happened today was the best that could've happened on a day like this. *except for the fact that I had to bring so many things, hehe, but that's ok.* Anyway, that's all for now. tata. I won't bother myself with things. Oh and yeah, I went home at about four and we saw the Supreme Court and there were no rallyists, in short no rally, so they may have cut the classes for nothing. "Never judge a book by its movie" p.s the picture attached is another example of japanese art, newei i just like looking at them.
you know you love me
xoxo
6:56:00 PM
Y 9.04.2005
What November Brings...
November, Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinkforward. Unique. brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Dont appreciate praises. Highspirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keepsecrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.
P.S. - I agree with the unhighlighted words but I do question those that are highlighted. I love taking quizzes. I want other people to tell me who I am based on some silly questions I have just answered. These quizzes are best for people who want to know who they are. Good doctor? I don't like seeing sick people. I never considered being a doctor. Not once, never. Less talkative? Me? Less talkative? hahaha. Lol. Hardly become angry unless provoked? Well, this is half true I guess. Love to be alone? Nah, I hate being alone. Don't appreciate praises? I do appreciate praises. Whether people agree or disagree, all the unhighlighted qualities are qualities I possess. Waaa... I want to join the Science Quiz Bee but I can't. Waaa...It's so unfair. You know why? Because we, as officers of the Knights of Science (KOS) are the ones who will make the questions for the Science Quiz Bee. I have just finished making my set of questions which covers Physics, Biology and Chemistry. Warning, these are tough questions. The title of my post is What November Brings...but let's talk about September first. It is another jampacked month. It's the Science Month and as one of the treasurers of KOS I have to be around in all the activities, supervising this and that. There will be no gimmicks every friday because all of the activities are scheduled on Fridays. Sacrifices...haay...I just wish that the Science Month activities will all be successful. P.S.S - What is the universal language of Science? (im me if you know the answer) (Hint: The answer was given by Maximilian Kohler.)
you know you love me
xoxo
2:58:00 PM
Y 9.02.2005
Reconnecting with the Past...
We should always have our focus on the present, be aware of what might happen in the future and never forget our past. Reconnecting with the past is not only reminiscing the memories that we have. Reliving the past is also a way of reconnecting. I kind of relived the past today. Today, 090205, was not like any other day because of several reasons. Firstly because we had a mass today after 4 months. There was also a program, the Gawad Parangal. We missed our first four subjects. We were busy practicing after that. The choric interpretation of "The Man With a Hoe" was this afternoon and we haven't practiced anything. Luckily, we were able to do it and we were able to present something good. Mrs. Liwayway S. Carteciano was our adviser last year. She was known as "Storm" when we were still freshmen. She mentioned last year that she was retiring but we thought it will not push through because we still saw her this year. Now, the day has come for her to retire. The Ureyans made a program/party for her. We are her last advisory class so we are special to her and she to us. It started late and was quite chaotic due to the absence of many people. I realized how much I missed last year. Every little memory came flooding back. It hurts to think that we can never go back to the past to relive those happy moments. I mentioned earlier that I relived the past to reconnect with it. We acted like it was an ordinary day and we were going to our Biology class. Everyone was with the people that they are with last year. I was walking with Anna. That was when it hit me. I've mentioned a few times that I'm already liking my current section. I also mentioned to some people that I can't seem to miss my previous one. Now I know why. It's because things are different now. The Klyonne Whannica Mari of II - Urey is different from the Klyonne Whannica Mari of III - Mendel. The environment is also different. Urey brings back memories. The party was quite weird. I was just quiet. Things are really different. After the party we went to Robinson's Place Manila, GBox, I had quite a good time. All in all, things still felt weird. You may not understand what I'm saying because you don't understand what I feel. I just want things to be back to normal but it's not possible anymore. How i wish...Anyway, Happy weekend to all. "You don't choose the person you love, love chooses for you."
you know you love me
xoxo
7:46:00 PM
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