Y 10.11.2005
With the Blink of An Eye
"The only permanent thing in this world is change." This is a saying I learned from my Science teacher when I was still a 6th grader at St. Scholastica's Academy. Come to think of it, the saying is right. It makes sense. As a teen, they say that we tend to have mood swings. Once again, I agree. I have been experiencing mood swings since I entered the world of teenhood but lately, the time it takes for my mood to change seems to take just a blink of an eye. One minute I'm happy, after a few seconds I'm sad and after a few more seconds I'm angry then happy again. I don't know why the sudden rapid change of moods. This morning started the same as always. We did something quite unexpected in Physics. We lied to Ms. Hedia and told her we did not have an assignment when in fact we did. It was a problem that had to be solved but I guess none of us knew how. When we discovered that the great GaliLEOdegario doesn't have an assignment we all panicked. There was no one to turn to. So we just said there was no assignment in the first place and she actually believed us. I just hope she doesn't read this post. T.L.E. brought some surprises. I enjoyed smocking. F.Y.I. Smocking is a type of embroidery it has nothing to do with two people kissing. This message is for the cave man and Niño for reacting when we said we were reporting about smocking. Anyway, we thought it was so hard to do the stitches but then we were wrong. It was fairly easy and the designs we create were so amusing to see. Trigo was so and so. Filipino was group work and well we received an 8, no questions asked. Chem was experiment time. AdBio was sleeping time again. Hehehe. No. I did not sleep but then I was once again in the brink of diving into my world of fantasy. We will have a test tomorrow so I should study for that. Lunch time was delayed because I asked Nikko to tell me some stories first. *Flashback* I'm so happy for him and for her. P.S. They are two different people who are not related to each other whatsoever. I think it's the first time that I felt so happy for other people even if I'm not happy for myself. Bit complicated, huh?*End of Flashback* I was supposed to write that in my post for yesterday but due to the lack of time since my internet card is only for an hour I wasn't able to finish my post. Back to today, Math was fine and thank God there was no Computer Science. MAPEH was also fine and so was English. I was chosen as one of the bests in my group so I will be reciting tomorrow for the story telling. The dismissal time was full of drama. I was waiting for Nikko since I told him I won't leave the school until he tells me all the stories that he has already told Abychu. Abychu then told me that there was a complication because of certain things. I got nervous not for myself but for Abychu. I just hope things will work out fine. Then when we were about to go home I suddenly found out that my cell phone was not with me. I panicked then suddenly I rememberd it was with Mel. I tried calling my number but it was unattended. I started getting nervous and almost cried but luckily it really was with him and it is in safe hands. *sigh of relief* Normal day I would say. Except for the fact that I made someone cry, accidentally though. Even if he doesn't want to admit it we were witnesses of the tears that fell down his cheeks. I wanted to write this yesterday but due to some unforeseen forces I wasn't able to do so. A conversation with a friend might become an eye-opener without you noticing it. I wasn't really meaning to tell him about why I was depressed and all last sunday night but I guess it won't hurt if I do so. I wasn't expecting real advice to come from him but there were things that he said that made me see things clearly. There was a certain sentence that he said which made me see things in a new light. I found myself being my normal self again. I haven't felt depressed since that conversation so I thank him. I'm still confused though but I can feel it. I can feel myself being reborn from the ashes of yesterday. Haha...Just like Fawkes. Anywhoo life still goes on. Life is still life. I can't still survive Happy Hopper wild x2 speed. But some things in life are just like the games we play. There will come a time when we can't seem to survive but then we will be able to accomplish things and in time achieve our goals. My goal at the moment is to survive Happy Hopper. In time I will be able to do it. Just like the problems I am facing now, in time I will be able to overcome them. I just simply need to wait. Yeah, something that is hard to do but sometimes it's the only answer available.
P.S. Dan is so! He really is the guy of my dreams. Nobody can ever replace him.
you know you love me
xoxo
8:31:00 PM
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