Y 8.16.2005
Missing Someone...
My heart hurts...you want to know why? Have you ever experienced missing someone and you feel that that someone doesn't miss you back? It hurts. My day was just a typical school day. Nothing that important happened. I went home tired, as usual. I went online and I found something that made my heart burn in pain. I can't believe I could care for a friend this much. Though I consider her as my best friend, I still can't believe I can care for a person this much. Of course, I do care for my other close friends. If they were the ones who were gone I would also feel this way. My friends are my strength. I realized that last year. Without my friends, I am nothing. I hate being alone and lonely. My friends are the ones who make me happy. They save my day from being monotonous. I'm so lucky to have found great friends. I'm so lucky because out of the millions of people in this country I was able to find them. I'm so happy that even for only a year we were able to spend some really great quality time together. I hope we can all go back to those times, the good and the bad. I hope we were still that close. I hope it's the 5 of us again, inseparable. I'm full of hopes that will never happen. I feel so left out. I just hope that I will not lose the two others. Don't go and don't leave me. I might sound selfish but hey, that's how I feel. You will not realize how important someone is until you lose him/her. It was already late when I realized that. I wish I had realized it sooner so that I could have cherished every moment I shared with you but now that you're gone. What else can I do but sit here and miss you.
you know you love me
xoxo
8:30:00 PM
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